after years being away, I decided to log back in to see how LJ is doing.

I need to update my LJ more. Even though I like FB, I hate posting anything there except for bits of announcements. Speaking of FB ( Read more... )

It is so hard for me to figure out what I read in 2010. But here's a list which I thought is relatively accurate (I think). Boy did I read a lot of crap - mostly young adult books ( Read more... )

Last Friday, Jas called to cancel on me for dinner. She was apologetic and said something like, "I'm sorry to cancel, I know that people have been canceling on you a lot and you get upset about it, but I can't help it" (or some words to that effect). After the call, I thought - is that really true? Did people cancel on me as frequently as she is ( Read more... )

On Monday, my counselor mentioned that I might be clinically depressed. I have never thought about being depressed until now because I don't FEEL depressed. However, now that she mentioned it, I kept thinking about it, and now I'm considering that it might be true.

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For whatever reason, I couldn't sleep again last night. In the last 14 days, I must have slept less than 20 hours in total. I know why I couldn't sleep (mainly anxiousness and over-rationalizing), but I can't do anything about it right now so I have to wait til this passes ( Read more... )

For the longest time, I really do believe in fate. Fate as in like "things happen for a purpose", and "if something is meant to be, it will". I'm not saying that we don't have to work for it to make it happen. Sometimes we keep trying for years before it happens. But I am saying that if it is meant to be, it will be. If it is not meant to be, ( Read more... )

In the last few months, I have learned a lot of things about myself. One of the key things I learned is that I can handle rejection, but I cannot tolerate betrayal. The problem is that most people want to be "nice" so instead of saying something directly to me that they know sounds painful and heart-rendering, they try to explain around it by using ( Read more... )

A few weeks ago, I mentioned to L that I find it surprising how people respond to me when I mentioned my personal issues to them. I find that some people, whom I consider really good friends, just don't know how to respond appropriately. In retrospect, I find it funny, but at that time, I was totally disappointed by their response (or lack of).

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Two weeks ago, I have went to see a counselor/therapist/psychologist for the first time in my life. After that one 2 hour session and pondering for a couple of weeks, I can truly say that it is a life-changing experience for me. I would highly recommend everyone to see a counselor at one point in their lives. I don't think you need to have a ( Read more... )