as the title says in japanese; it`s been a while. i have attmpted to write a couple, but ended up with bitter, messy tangles of complaints, unfit for viewing. we`re still riding the rollercoaster here, folks. the temperature is sliding all over the place, from 24 degrees back down to 8. in these last two weeks i`ve gone through a horrendous bout of ( Read more... )

today i am melancholy ( Read more... )

i went to the second edition of 'pause talk', a creative discussion event organised by jean snow, a writer who runs a artsy blog on the design/gaming/magazine/cultural events in tokyo. the first time i went i was nervous because everyone else who went seemed to be working on grand exciting projects, and all i could do was thrust forward my unhcr ( Read more... )

there are some parts of japan that seem so sad ( Read more... )

i just wrote an entry that became such a weary litany of complaints and whinging that i hid it only for private consumption, and determined to write something a little less mundane and dripping in self-pity. the long and short of it was that i feel tired, i had a busy weekend, my house is unbearably cold and i need to find more balance in my life ( Read more... )

i am now definitely on the mend, but i would like to capture the oscillations in my mood but posting something that i wrote by hand earlier this week ( Read more... )

my fifteen year old self proclaimed;

I want to scuff up interest as easily as I stamp my foot in the dust! Just you try and stop me! I want the wry grins of the confused to follow me down the street like body odour! I want everyone with white hair to shake their head in the puzzlement and disgust necessary of the older generations! I want to ( Read more... )

although i might have been misguided to believe in or hope for the contrary, it's still sort of disappointing that my six months of free labour at the UN has not helped a single refugee. squat. i have learnt a lot, to be sure, but my actual contribution? pretty much zilch. my presence adds very little value. hence why i am getting reasonably tired ( Read more... )

i had the day off work today, and although i set off from the house rather later than i had hoped, i managed to get quite a lot done; pick up my foreigner's registration card, cycle a few miles, go to an art gallery in ginza and then got to the UN for an interpretation training course. it was fascinating, far more interactive than i thought it ( Read more... )

i have been combating the panic of my last bat-brained post with precisely the strategy everyone urged me to adopt; HEDONISM. i am thinking- fretting even- about the future, but for some reason staying up til the wee hours talking to club kids and drinking vodka out of a plastic cup seem more attractive and precisely what i need. the only thing is ( Read more... )