the night before i left town for good, i drove bobby ray to the grocery store. while following him and his buggy around, i suddenly felt her behind me. before i could stop myself, i turned around, and saw them, still together after all this time, his eyes burning into the back of my head. i ducked into the aisle with cheeks burning and then walked ( Read more... )

several half-hearted attempts at being the old new me, with the new new me and the old old me battling it out in no-holds barred contests in crowded places. through fasting the wheels are turning slow. rusty joints grinding out sickly rhythms and sleep reduced to a bare necessity of eye closings and deeply begrudging re-openings to disinterested ( Read more... )

the princess spoiling milk
they thought she was a witch
when they poured it on her
she didn't melt

i bear no guilt 

a beating on my door commenced a beating of my soul, i broke apart my last remaining goodness and let the seeds and pulp sour and rotten on the floor. do you know the smell of solitary sorrow? the week old dishes in the sink, the unused, unmade bed ( Read more... )

the summer is already fading out in mosquito buzz and sunday morning hangovers. the bloody ways of minimum wage have taken their toll on my diseased heart, kisses to the crying cooks and all. my body is stooped but i feel driven more than ever, up and over dig me cliff? remiss. the plunks and plinks of months left forgotten ( Read more... )

yesterday morning my fingers were frozen purple and i kept dropping everything. a forty year old woman took over for me while i went on break, and when i came back, she was crying. "every since my ex did that number on my jaw it just hasn't been the same" i looked at her hands and they were worse than mine, a dark purple that looked painful. she ( Read more... )

a lot of time. too many finger tapping minutes racing around all day getting little done then falling off my feet at the end of a long day. going to sleep before sunset and waking up well before dawn. making coffee and running out the door with not a drop to drink. little writing. scrawled failed drawings on the floor ( Read more... )

i've been stuck inside a rut deep enough to hang pictures in, but no time for that either, it's slave/sleep/slave with some inhaling and exhaling along the way. i never thought i'd be waking up at 5 am out of habit- i never thought that a lot of things going on in my life right now would ever be happening. but here we are. in a few months i might ( Read more... )

i left work without experiencing massive blood loss for the first time in three days! go me!

i was going to say something about where i've been for two months ( Read more... )