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This just doesn't seem right
it doesn't feel ok
somethings wrong with this picture
it's not how things are uspposed to be
life is ment to be happy, exciting, and bright
but all I see is darkness
because I continue to dig deeper into this hole.
The endless black abyss
consumes my soul, body and my mind.
Why is happiness such a ( Read more... )

     ~A Best Friend Means Forever~

I don't think you know
think you understand
how much you truly mean to me

The pain I'd go through if you leave me too.
I don't think I could stand it.
It'd be just as hard if not as har as before.

Without you there'd be no point
no one to talk to
no one to cry with
no one to tell my secrets to
no one who knows how I'm ( Read more... )

last night i was sitting here writing steve my youth pastor steve an e-mail and i over herd my mom talking on the phone about something that happened to her that was really very odd ( Read more... )

things have been ok i guess lately but theres just been a lot on my mind ( Read more... )

Holding onto what escapes me, what he has, a better look that will last and last. i cant wait till i see u in heaven when i can here u say welcome home and hold me in your arms again and ill be ur little girl just like always. i want so badly to hear your voice, to be in your arms, to hear u say i love you

In my thoughts in my dreams in my head and ( Read more... )

ive been having a really hard bad week, just with all the fighting and bickering and then when im talking to my youth pastor steve about stuff i cry and i cry when i talk to jonas and to corey and everything is making me think about my dad everything and now im in deep shit bc my mom found my bottle of vodka in my room so im done for for a while... ( Read more... )

 Serene Beast7:  Hey
Serene Beast7:  Have you ever been to Winter Weekend?
Sweets 1809:  yeha ive been there twice
Serene Beast7:  do you know how much it is usually?
Sweets 1809:  around 100 usually
Sweets 1809:  it was 89 i think last year
Sweets 1809:  or something like that
Serene Beast7:  ahh
Serene Beast7:  alrighty
Serene Beast7:  what do you do ( Read more... )

living a life for God seems so hard when he takes a parent away ( Read more... )

not much happened today schliffka brought us dinner woo hoo and then i saw ronnie at fridays...it was their homecoming tonight...fun fun fun i also got to see kyle t :) then i went home and got on here cuz i have an early curfew and i have no life lately so thats what i basically do...yay ( Read more... )

yesterday eventhough it was my fathers memorial...it couldnt have been a better experience. I saw many many faces that i havent seen in years and i also saw faces of people i just havent talked to in the same amount of time...and then i saw the faces of the people that mattered the most to me. My bestest friends were there with the exception of ( Read more... )