I'm almost done with my second year in nursing. So far, 2008 has been good, but not as great as I would have hoped for. I mean, I've passed all my exams, I've made new friends and I've been eating quite healthy compared to last year. 2007 was a disaster actually haha, but then again I was a lot thinner than I am right now. I know people think I ( Read more... )

Just spent the money my mother gave me for food on some shoes I just could not live without...How about that. You could say I'm kind of a shopaholic. I love fashion, clothes and everything that comes with it.  Need to get my broke ass to work more now that my bank account is empty though...blah

 I've had one of my better days today. Got up at 5.30 am, went to work and had a failry good day there. I like my job. Sometimes I even like my life, just not as often as I want to. It can be hard...very hard, but hopefully I can cope with the downsides a little better now than before ( Read more... )

My days at the hospital are quite sad at the moment. I'm at the cancer section and it really gets me being among such sick people and their families. Sometimes I feel so helpless it's unreal! But in one way I think it's good for me. It helps me grow as a person doing what I can to help them. I

I found what I do best in life I guess and that's the ( Read more... )

I totally fucked up again because I'm stessing so bad thinking of the weeks to come. So I purged doing my poor teeth some more damage. Like they haven't melted enough!! I used to have perfect teeth by the way!

I mean it has gotten so bad.  I'm feeling beyond sad, maybe more ironic:p Getting to my lowest weight is harder than I thought it would be ( Read more... )

I'm entering forbidden grounds. That's how it feels like. I can't stop thinking of him! He's there inside my mind even though I'm trying to ignore that fact. It's my roomate's boyfriend I'm talking about. God, I hate this! I could never go behind her back, even if he wanted me over her, but it's just bloody frustrating when my emotions is ( Read more... )

Times are weird. I've been more than okay since new years. Maybe it's just a coincidence or maybe it's because I've started to give myself at least 1 complement each day. That was my new years resolution, to think of something good about myself each morning before leaving the house. Even if I don't really believe it, it does something to you, you ( Read more... )

Sometimes it feels like I have noone in the world to speak to...

I'm currently reading a book about depression in the hope of understanding myslef a little better. I've figured I've been depressed since the age of 12. Before that, I've only struggled with some anxiety because of neglect and child-abuse ( Read more... )

Christams dinner was okay this year I guess. The funny thing is I kept having these uncontrollable mood-swings all night. One second I was laughing and having a good time, the next I felt like bursting out in tears wanting to just die. Weird ( Read more... )