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03NOV08 psychosis
This morning at work I had the worse degree of psychosis to date. There was a swarm of crystals having a 5 to 1 aspect ratio and variously beveled ends lighting up red, blue, yellow, white and black. The black ones were fascinating in that they would light up and radiate blackness. All the crystals were either horizontal or vertical. They would ( Read more... ) -
Kako
After 14 years, I had to give up my cat Kako today and I’m very sad. She stopped using the litter box and the people I live with found that to be absolutely unacceptable. They also wouldn’t let Kako sleep in my bed with me. I had to give her up and so she went back to the cat care society where I got her all those years ago ( Read more... ) -
I'm back
It’s been way too long ( Read more... ) -
My meds, and my mom's meds
I saw my shrink Tuesday and we’ve dropped another med. He said I should be unstable and feared I would go manic at any moment. I’m just on 2 psych meds and I’m thinking of dropping the anti-depressant. To properly complete this medication makeover, all I need is raging mania, uncontrolled psychosis, crushing depressions, grandiose delusions, and ( Read more... ) -
Yea me - Happy Birthday...
. . . and all that crap. I had a definite urge to go bungee jumping with rope instead of elastic; tied around my neck instead of my feet. Unfortunately with today being 47, the symmetry would be all wrong ( Read more... ) -
On becoming Carol
It’s been a while since I’ve posted here; I’ve been busy working as a glass bevel grinder. When I started the job, in the first week of July, it didn’t take me long to realize that the degree of the tremors I have as a side effect of the medications I’m on is not compatible with hand grinding glass. So far I’ve only ruined a few pieces and I’m the ( Read more... ) -
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My good friend and co-author Karen is in the hospital, and Elisabeth is given to calling it a snake pit. She went in Wednesday, it’s now Sunday and she has been seen once by a doctor and once by a therapist. They haven’t done anything different with her meds and she is still suffering as badly as when she went in. We’ve been telling her to check ( Read more... ) -
Still no work and other morbid stuff.
Well, all my hot job prospects have fallen through. This leaves me without hope. I don’t know what I’m going to do but perhaps I should try going in a totally different direction. I’ve been unemployed for a year, and this alone is making it harder for me to get anything. I think I’ll ask my vocational rehabilitation counselor if she can give me ( Read more... ) -
Softness in a hard world.
I had another job interview today and was week in transistor theory so they want to interview several more candidates before making a decision. I’m starting to feel depressed thinking I’ll never find a job ( Read more... )