i've cracked. i've totally fallen over the edge.  i really can't keep it together.  i need help ( Read more... )

 so i've been bummed lately.  perhaps thats come out in these entries?? haha.  so lets think of the positives ( Read more... )

ive actually been updating this this relatively frequently. whats up with that?

so today i was thinking about how i used to feel like working would be perfect for me..  because id have every night off to hang out with friends and every weekend off too just to chill out.  but i think working this quarter makes me realize that living just for your ( Read more... )

*sigh* sunday. another week of work ahead. i just cant get excited for this. all it does is depress me to think about ( Read more... )

Soo im at work, and im going to be leaving in probably about 45 mins to start an amazing weekend.  This weekend sweetest day is on Saturday, and I get to see my sweetest allll weekend long.  I’m takin him to the Mongolian grill tomorrow because he has never been there and I think he would really like it.  I absolutely can’t wait.  I adore this man.
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So I looked a little bit into getting a masters in education.  Turns out you can do it with any undergrad major.  So that’s definitely something to think about.. id really love to be a high school teacher.   Easier subjects to teach, no research, more regular type of day.. yeah. I would like that so much better than an engineering job.  I’m sure of ( Read more... )

thought of the day:  people are mean to you, do things that piss you off, make you feel awkward, uncomfortable, angry, or just generally annoyed for one purpose.. to teach you what it is that annoys people and pisses them off ( Read more... )

 
I am so lost.  SO LOST.  So frustrated, down, depressed, lonely, spiteful.. and to top it all off I am having a really big problem figuring out what is important to me in life.  Just let me rant and rave here.

I do not want to work any more.  I want to go back to school.  I am so tired of 7:30-4 every day.  And I miss Columbus, I miss my friends ( Read more... )

Ok.  So the idea is not to collapse, not to break down.  The idea is to take CONTROL of my emotions ( Read more... )

so ive decided the worst thing about this quarter is that ill be living two half lives.  I'm not in columbus, but im not really in cincinnati either.  I will be going back and forth so much that just that in itself will fill like a constant roller coaster ride.  Different friends, different people, different settings all the time.  I'll never get ( Read more... )