Sometimes I just want to reach out and try and fix things.

Then I think, that's not what you want.

I wished I knew.

Why can't we try.

Sigh.

Allo once again journal. Why is it that I turn to you every few years? I guess it's cause no one knows you exist.

It's also because you know who I am, where I've been, and what I've experienced as I age. I look back sometimes just to reflect, but only when I have things on my mind.

Today is no exception.

I haven't used you since 2011 because I've ( Read more... )

Ugh. Its going to be one of them weeks again. What am I doing again?

I stopped looking for acceptance from you years ago. Let me be a man and accept the responsibilities I choose to accept, or walk away and stop trying to make me into what you think I should be. I realize the potential I have yet you keep trying to set up roadblocks in my way ( Read more... )

Its interesting how I keep turning back to you my journal. You've always helped me in organizing my thoughts together and let me say the things that matter to me. I guess your the voice that I don't have ( Read more... )

I apperently never going to live up to expectations. Would be easier to do if expectations were closer to who I am, and not what I'm wanted to be.

I only try to be me. That's all I know to be. I wish some folks would just try to understand that rather than make me who they think I should be.

As I get older, I realize that I'm not as passive as I once was before. It's quite interesting the struggle and mixed emotions I feel which tends to contradict each other. I realize that my life has always been based and defined around the people and environment around me, right now, it's just me and the world ( Read more... )

Every couple of years, life likes to test my internal strengths. Every couple of years, I come back here to my livejournal looking at changes. This is where I hide from the rest of the world as most have forgotten or have not known about me here ( Read more... )

Must keep moving forward. There are so many things to look forward to and the past was a good run... *note to self*

4 Interview questions by banditprincess

A while back ago, banditprincess had competed a meme where she was asked 5 interview questions from another LJ user. I have never been a big fan of memes because they weren't as engaging or thought provoking, at least when people answered. Take a look at the 25 questions that is being posted around facebook ( Read more... )