In response to my own bitching about myself, I was thinking really hard last night, and now actually have something of weight to say instead of my usual drabble.  Not that I really expect you to read it, I'd just like to vocalize for a while and get these thoughts out so maybe they'll leave me alone and let me sleep.

I was looking back at ( Read more... )

I was talking to Thomas last night and he convinced me to put up my two old essays for Philosophy class last year, so here they are, plus a poem I thought I'd share.  Open to any readers, of course, and if you have any kind of feedback or suggestions for improvement, they are very welcome.  I admit both essays could kind of use some tweaking, now ( Read more... )

Jon's gone, on his way to basic training somewhere.  And that's really sad.  He had quickly become one of my closest friends, surely the one I spent the most time with.  It's wierd, it's become harder now to think of what I'm going to do with my spare time, now that he's not there to hang out with.  I miss him already.

On the upside, I just finished ( Read more... )

Today Jeff Gordon won the Nascar Talladega race, and thousands of angry Earndhart fans threw beer cans at him.  Jr. was in that race, it was Earndhart territory, it would be Dale Eardhart's birthday today if he was alive, and to top it off, today Jeff Gordon has officially beaten Dale Earndhart's win record.  And while I'm sad about my favs getting ( Read more... )

I've decided, very logically, that I do not believe in fate.  Because I don't think that any kind of higher power would fate us into the bad things in life, it makes more sense to believe that sometimes things just happen.  And it would be hypocritical to believe in good fate, but not bad fate ( Read more... )

Concern--when I think I feel strong enough, or when the silence drives me, I will sometimes delve a little into Karmi's LJ.  I can only read what is posted publicly, but I'm okay with that.  And I am always surprized by the urge to comfort her.  I swear, it's pathalogical.  But I know that road, I've been there, and I could still point out to you ( Read more... )

I know it's probably going to come back and bite me in the ass later, but I have been way too excited to eat all day.  I had to make myself eat some fruit for lunch, because with my fainting spells and all, I'm trying to defeat the rumor of me being anorexic.  Like I could ever pass as an anorexic...

Oh, and I came on my friends page today, just ( Read more... )

"Mountains should be climbed with as little effort as possible and without desire.  To live only for some future goal is shallow.  The reality of your own nature should determine the speed.  If you feel restless, speed up.  If you feel winded, slow down.  Then, when you are no longer thinking ahead, each step is not a means to an end but a unique ( Read more... )

I belong in the service of the queen ( Read more... )

Erin Hayley is so blunt and honest, and I love her to death, but I really didn't need to hear to what extent people talked shit behind my back for being the new girl and different.  I just didn't.  That shit's all over, even she said it doesn't happen any more, and I'd rather not know / forget that specific part of my life.  I cried on and off all ( Read more... )