Dammit ( Read more... )

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Well, I talked to Ko on the phone today finally.

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So I took something called the "Myers Briggs" personality test and according to them I am an "ISTP" person ( Read more... )

Please call me? I won't be available tonight, though. Please call me in the afternoon if you can.

I kissed Shindou last night.

I didn't even mean to, except that I did.

I want to be closer to him, but I don't

I know I'm freaking out and maybe I shouldn't be. He wants me, why is that so bad?

What if

There's no way that I can

I feel like it can only get worse

Why am I so
And now everything's a mess. We're pretending it's not, though ( Read more... )

Ogata-san is here. I managed to avoid him until this afternoon when the person he was to play in the public match was unable to play and they asked me to fill in. I had no trouble doing so. Although I want to avoid any more uncomfortable conversations with him, on stage and playing Go, I thought, should be fine ( Read more... )

(in his hotel room in Hokkaido ( Read more... )

On from the Internet kiosk in the lobby of the hotel in Hokkaido, just checking my email. I am soon to be dragged to a fancy dinner with a bunch of people I don't really know.

I wish I was at home, eating ramen and watching Death Note with Shindou.

I wasn't going to leave a message but I might as well. I'm at a Go convention and just needed to talk to someone above beginner dan. (weak laugh) Sorry, spent the afternoon playing shidougo with clueless rich businessmen. My brain is dead. Call me later if you want. My phone will be on.