Yesterday was the one month mark or my grandmother's death.

Oh my god, has it really been one month already? It's so hard to believe.

It doesn't even feel like it's been that long.

And even now it's just starting to hit me more and more.

I'm crying myself to sleep more.

I'm happy less.

I hate this..

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I fucking hate life right about now.

Boy's aren't really helping the situation right now either. Actually, their stupid fucking asses are making things worse. I fucking hate it.

So much shit going on. I just want to get away from all of this crap. School. Drama. This empty fucking hole in my life.

Whatever though, I'm being dramatic.

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I miss my grandmother.

Plain and simple.

This house feels so empty.

She was such a big part of my life. And that part is missing now.

So what do I fill it with? Drugs? Sex? Alcohol? No, nothing seems good enough. Nothing could ever fill that void.

My grandmother's obituary was printed in the newspaper today.

I dunno. Just seeing it. Her picture and all. It's just.. hard.

I guess it'll take a little while for things to be okay again.

They posted her obituary on the Review Journal website. But it'll only be there for 30 days.

Saturday night. About 11:30pm.

It's been almost exactly one week since my grandmother first went into the hospital.

One week. That's it. It's amazing what can happen in just one week.

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And today at 11:44am, my grandmother passed away.

And do you know where I was at the time? At home. I should have been there. I got home at 2am last night and I wanted to go back at 8am. But I slept through my alarm.

I should have been there at the hospital with her when she died.