when you are like this you are blind to yourself. you call me selfish, but i wouldn't have told you if it didnt help you. funny how you see it. i do what you ask and i get yelled at for it. well then you are on your own. freedom is yours i cant help you and i wont try. trust is gone and well i guess is what friends are for. NOTHING. i am done done ( Read more... )

I think I am going to start writing again. I miss the release that I used to use ( Read more... )

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I am stuck at this boring job. I need life to pop. To Shake, just to rearrange and show me something out side of this box that I am currently located. I like what I have but hate what i am doing this time I want a little more. Something bigger. Finally I have no more concerns about my love life. Yet once the focus left my love life. It left me ( Read more... )

This is the end of October I dont know wht really was accomplished this month. I am still in love it is so insane how it never fades. Family life is miserable ( Read more... )

Cathy just ruined my holiday surprise. What is that. Now I know I am going to get delicious halloween mix ( Read more... )

I have bought a paper journal. I am sorry.
I need to get some personal things out!

I will write more again soon I swear!

RJ~

When just saying I love you leaves a void. Almost like it is not accomplishing its intent. You feel unfullfilled and are looking for better ways to say I love you!

Is that when it is true love?

RJ~

Yup that is it folks we have done it. 5 straight monthes. Anyone who knows me knows that is un heard of. I never had a relationship this long. I was with
Stephi for 2 years with commited breaks but there were breaks

Shit I am so happy!

RJ~

Yup some guy told me I kick ass at tennis
my feet hurt

I am horny
cold shower tonight

RJ

Brett show no love pooper