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things that make you go hhhmmmm.......
ok so i'm trapped at work again. been a much better day. in fact a guy that works here asked for my number and we are to go out to eat on thurs. thats my first night off. so that kinda hhhhmmmmm. he seems really sweet. and he's pale and skinny. just they way i like em. so fuck the other guy woo hoo i gotta date! yay me. :D i can't believe i got a ( Read more... ) -
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the boy comes to me tall and pale ( Read more... ) -
i can't believe he got killed....
ok so i'm at work right now and my cousin was in car wreck and got killed... he was impalled by a tree. he was the passenger. the driver is like all in shock and some guy i don't know. but i can't believe my cousin was killed. he was only 19. and now i know he is in the morgue, here right here where i am, in a sealed bag with part of a tree in him ( Read more... ) -
here again....
well, i hung out with PH a lil tonight, i feel a little better. we talked and she wanted to go over to his house. i explained to her that i couldn't deal with not being the g/f and that i still had old feelings for him, she said ok she understood that. then we just drove around and listened to music, mainly Garbage but a little Tool and some orgy. ( Read more... ) -
just read if you want, i don't care anymore.
i am at home. i left work early. my migraines are still acting up and i'm still pretty drained. work sucked. he still hasn't called. he did however read a text i sent him... i'm pathetic i know. i just want to be loved, is that so wrong. he does not reply to my messages, he never has though. i feel very numb about him today so i guess thats ok. i'm ( Read more... ) -
for anybody who give a fuck
he did not call as promised. he dinged me on yahoo at 1111... i have had 10 cookies- 5 being oreos and 5 being samoaes(sp?) 2 pieces of sausage, 2 pieces of bread, and a peanut butter and applebutter sandwich. i hate myself. good night all. -
again? i think its just me.
well here i sit, again, bummed. i just want him to want to be with me... is that so wrong.. he is leaving on fri or sat for denver, i mean i guess i sorta knew i was a fling but its not so much that as much as it is the fact that i wanted us so desperetly to be really close good friends. if he would ever get his shit straight he could be the guy of ( Read more... ) -
GREAT SONG!!!! GARBAGE: "YOU LOOK SO FINE" : VERSION 2.0
"You Look So Fine ( Read more... ) -
what would you do?
well, its official. i am screwed. i went and saw him this evening. i enjoy him so much. i hate that he is an ex, it adds all this paranois that i don't need. i want this to work out so bad but horribly afraid that i won't. i wonder what i am supposed to do since he is an ex, how i'm supposed to act, how i'm supposed to win exactly. i dont know how ( Read more... ) -
you suck
you suck, you know why. you just cant treat ppl this way. is a couple of days of fun worth weeks worth of misery? i used to think yes because one day worth of love is worth a lifetime of pain for the one momment of happiness. but now that i'm just a little older i think no. i just cant do this anymore, im just not strong enough. why do i let ppl ( Read more... )