so, i finaly get it. i'm gay. why was i the last one to find out?. i've dated a guy for 6 yrs now.. well, we've been fucking for 6 yrs. i've only really got'n to know him for the past 3. falling asleep in his arms feels like heaven. when he falls asleep in mine, i feel like God. everything, if only for the time in each others arms feels secure. it ( Read more... )

its so hard to be me. something in me doesn't allow it, i'm afraid of loosing my closes friends. all tho i have a feeling they already know.. i dont act gay for shit. but, i haven't had a gf in the last 8 years..i've been w/ girls but no committment.. i only did it and continue doing it to get them off my back. i'm affraid of what my family will ( Read more... )

i just watch my first gay movie, and i cried. to think that having gay feelings is so wrong, might just be the worst thing. its been 30 years and for the first time ever, i felt normal. i felt happy. a movie moved me in ways i don't understand and it finally clicked ( Read more... )

another semester has started and i'm already busting major ass... and already i'm behind in school work. i say this every semester.."i'm going to stay ontop of it, i'm not ganna fall behind!" and fuck!! i'm now behind!....but its all good, i'm currently in the library i finished two papers and i have class at 11 a.m ( Read more... )

damm...work kicked ass.. i didn't do SHIT!... fuckin badass ( Read more... )

i woke up today dreaming about the future... God it felt so good! i had no problems then. My feelings completely in order, although i doubt that will ever happen. little by little i have been coming to the realization that i'm completely bisexual, i'm beginning to lean more to the male side... i wonder if this will have a negative effect on my life ( Read more... )

whats wrong w/ me? i'm dating an awsome girl. and just today i found out my freind really likes me...he kissed me.. and now, i can't stop looking at a guy that works in the computer lab.

damm.

i'm so fucking confused.

i'm ganna hit the gym. and take out all of my agression there.

i'm having the hardest time expressing myself. everything i have to say sucks ( Read more... )

The United States of America is viewed by the world as the land of opportunity and above all else, the land of freedom. Since the establishment of our nation, superior standards set forth by our founding fathers have created equal opportunity for all citizens. However, some rights have yet to be given to certain minority groups. In America it is ( Read more... )

that is the title of my essay. in which i will attempt to argue FOR gays and lesbian to serve openly in the military. .... this is a hard essay for me to write, mainly because i don't know how to feel about the issue. apart of me is for, another is against, and yet another is "don't ask don't tell ( Read more... )