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People hurt others to feel better about themselves.

They need to feel better because they are crying inside.

Hurting others to feel better about myself is stupid.

It never took away the pain...

I got into an argument with the "friend" I cared about the most.

It hurt because that friend means a lot to me.

I went into my car, drove around, parked...

That's when I started crying.

Night brings solace from mom screaming at my dad for shit he can't do anything about because he is illegal, from my grandma slowly killing my dad every 30 minutes, from there not being any cooked meals since I left Michael's, from having nothing but hotdogs to eat for 4 straight days, from all the financial consequences of being poor, from all the ( Read more... )

2:00 AM

Sitting here.
On computer.
Alone.

I don't eat.
It's boring.

Mom says
I'm less
Than a
Thing

Oh well.

Grandma didn't eat
She's dying.

Never knew love
I'm less
Of a
Person

Oh well.

I don't know brother.
I don't care.

Sitting here.
On computer.
Alone.

I care about you.

Shen: Some people think I am an asshole and some people think i'm the sweetest guy they ever met. They both contradict each other so which one is universally true? One of them has to be true right? Not really, they are both just subjective and neither true. I'm not going to base who I am and what I am worth on subjective perspectives that vary and ( Read more... )

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