I was persuaded to march in the alumni band again. The last time I did was in 2006. Someone born that year is an adult now. I never stopped to think about its significance or what it might evoke. The last time I did this, I was married, and it was my wife who talked me into doing it. In fact, I have never been on that football field without her ( Read more... )

For some reason, I thought the last post was from last night. Nope, this morning. I felt like I moved forward some today. I spoke to a few close friends, both giving me encouragement. I needed to hear that. One friend spoke about coming down for a few days, while the other said we should take a trip we had discussed in the past sometime in the very ( Read more... )

I should journal more. For someone who did that non-stop for years after a tragic ending to a marriage, I've been bad about documenting my toughts and feelings after the ending of this relationship. Tomorrow will mark one month ( Read more... )

It might sound weird, but I've been trying to reason through the breakup. Yeah, no. Emotions are still in charge. As crazy as it sounds for anyone who knows me, I actually cried. I'm not looking for sympathy by saying that. I just rarely do. I read that the average man cries 13 times per year. This was the first time I cried since starting EMDR in ( Read more... )

It was interesting to see an LJ friend from back in the day resurface on here two days ago. Part of my response to her post was to mention how I've progressed to the point of not feeling the need to type my thoughts on here so often. I recovered from PTSD with EMDR, and the world was very different for me... until today ( Read more... )

I like how LJ has been suggesting I try the new editor for years. I guess it isn't going to force us to use it. Maybe, it's because I'm still a paid user. I might need to rethink the latter ( Read more... )

The weather has been lifting. I still need to find my people, but at least, it's much more pleasant outside. At the very least, I need to find some activities. My brother caught a cold not long after he had COVID, so I've actually seen very little of him since the move. I was hoping to meet with some people here sooner, but a little delay isn't the ( Read more... )

I'm officially posting from Iowa. The transition has been surreal. It's insane how little I think about Minnesota. Some would say that's mentally healthy. I disagree. I think it's a little more involved. My therapist did say that I would be feeling much better by the end of the month and should be back to normal by summer. My social life has been ( Read more... )

Well, I'm posting again. Ever since recovering from PTSD with EMDR, the feeling of need to post disappeared. I'm posting tonight because I'm about to embark on the next step of recovery. I was told by two therapists to return to where the road diverged. After over 17 years in Minnesota, I'm going home, but my mind seems to be fighting the process ( Read more... )

It is definitely a stressful period in life. My brother came to visit and help sort and rid the items left behind who came before. Instead, we both picked up a respiratory bug. The difference is he has pneumonia and I'm on the mend. He certainly got hit worse than me ( Read more... )