Buddy my other hamster died, i loved him ever though i didnt show it..and i cried last night for a while..i miss him and i dont even know when he died..i buried him last night also..so im sad...there both gone...i love you guys!

haha im having fun at work..mostly with the girl who shares my name...ello fbi? you wouldnt get it unless you were there..ahh i love her...anyways..its been 3 months with yogi..im happy..really happy..with him that is..i love him..yes im IN love with him...hes my loverly...we are planning on moving out really soon..probably in the summer..cause he ( Read more... )

not much to say..i got the job..been working there a little over a week..i work alot but the money will be good...this week coming up is me and my loverlys 3 month!

i have a job interview tomorrow!! woo for me! i hope i get the job..but im not gonna get to worked up about it..but yeah..thats all thats really new i guess..im still living with my mom..and my boyfriend is with his dad..but if and when i get a job im saving up for an apartment for me and my loverly..its almost 3 months!! yay...

gar im at school..its stupid..really stupid..i just heard one of my boyfriends ex's talking about him or something...and shes right by me and she knows we are going out...fucking grr..now i have to tell him and ask what she was talking about..him doing something...or something like that...i hate her so much...ok so what has happened in the past ( Read more... )

im out of the hospital!! finally...well ok i have to go back tonight and get discharged..which sucks but i get to see KatieLynn again so im not complaining..i cry all the time for her..i wish there were something more i could do but i cant and it hurts me to realize that...cause she deserves so much more from life then she has gotten...i dyed my ( Read more... )

well i got admitted to the hospital this tuesday..YET AGAIN...this is like an ungoing fucking thing!! i cant go a week without being put in..oh well...its helping i suppose..im just on an over-night pass i go back tomorrow..how great is that? i met 2 new girls though that i just LOVE!!

a guy i have known since kindergarten died yestarday..even though i didnt talk to him much anymore..he was still a really nice guy..and he was ONLy 15 YEARS OLD!! and he was happy..why couldnt god have taken me instead of someone who was happy..i cant stop crying now...

ok I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL!! the closer we get to school....the more stressed i get...same with the more i think about it...i got 2 new pairs of shoes tomorrow..COVERSE!!!!!! and skater shoes..if thats what you wanna call them..anyways yes...that was fun..i saw my manda at the mall!!! that made me happy..i ran and hugged her..it was fun ( Read more... )

i got a bit of sleep last night, im worried about my 2 friends jes and manda. jes is really worried about manda drinking and yeah so am i..but i can kinda understand why manda does it..its kinda like why i cut and just recently started carving things into my arms..i think my boyfriend got lost coming here...hes gonna walk in the rain..thats not ( Read more... )