Fucking christ, this hurts...

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The shaking room and
the shadowed floors whisper
Home.
Home.
After two short weeks of
shadowed ceilings and shaking hands,
I am finally Home.
And I miss the cold fingertips,
the warm kiss.
And I miss Home.

l.a.m.

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I used to think, even when it was easiest, that it seemed so impossibly difficult. But I've had a love affair with Change and his heat is still trapped beside me, beneath the blankets. I'm ready for this. I didn't think I was but I know better now, apparent in at least parts of me, that I'm stronger than I ever knew, that I'm braver than I ever ( Read more... )

i am still alive. my life is taking on a new direction. i can feel it. i'm not sure where it's going or whether it's going to be heading somewhere good or bad but i welcome the change because the tenacity with which i cling to the everyday monotony of my life is becoming tiresome, even for me. i've been craving adventure and it is terribly ( Read more... )

1) i'm broke. broker than i've ever been. i tried doing a good thing in saving some money but that didn't go so well. something's gotta pay the rent ( Read more... )

it's been.......

interesting....

to say the least....

or maybe

it's been interesting

to say...

the most?

whatever. i'm trying to make the best of it, anyway.

it seems that i have made it a great habit to love most the people that can't love me back.

and it hurts.

(in that love, i chain my heart and happiness to them, without making them prisoners of it even though i've fallen, captivated by the perfection they portray in my mind's eye.)

(and it hurts bad.)

in love with my body recently. even the ugly parts are a wondrous sight to behold...

"i am wondrous woman and my own creature
my size and shape does not define my worth or my limits." -unknown

first week is officially over. you should have seen the tenacity with which i pulled it off. even i was proud of myself. regardless of what i get on this first paper, i'm aiming for a "c", i know that i didn't hold back (i don't think i did) and if it's any good at all, with a bit of revision, i have my personal statement for uc berkley preprepared ( Read more... )

it's the last week of june. hallelujah. back to the grind next week. i look forward to the relief that a busy schedule brings. i'm already stressing over it but i know i can get through it. it's one book. a few essays. a few poems. a few pages. i can do this, right? i think. i hope. i can. i just look forward to the feeling that i'm being ( Read more... )