So much was unfinished.

December 8, 1975 - March 14, 2011

Right now, right at this exact second, everything fucking sucks. I want to hide away but not just a bit--I want to disappear and get this weight off my shoulders. I'm so constantly terrorized by the fear of what happens after death that part of me wants to just get it over with and find out. And maybe if it's something favourable, I'll be able to ( Read more... )

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I feel more peaceful today. I need to learn self-acceptance, to believe that it's okay to feel like shit and struggle daily on a long-term basis over the same situation. I always crave validation from others because I don't believe I deserve it from myself. But now, I'm going to try validating myself and my feelings... here goes ( Read more... )

Hope and ruin
Living the dream
What we're doing
Is not what it seems

First to last
Best to worst
Ash to ash
Blessed to cursed

If you break down
I'll pull you through

Hope and ruin
Gone too soon
Hope and ruin
Me and youThe sun came up ( Read more... )

Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back ( Read more... )

Why am I so crazy and unstable?? This is ridiculous. I can't deal with it. Something has to be wrong that I get so upset over the tiniest thing. I can't deal with setbacks at all, even if they're tiny or impersonal. I can't accept frustration or disappointment without breaking down... and yet I can calmly accept a friend's impending death with no ( Read more... )

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mother mary, full of grace, awaken ( Read more... )

"Don't ever forget how special you are :) Remember too, you are never alone"I want to believe her, but somehow I don't. I feel like I'm needy, endlessly needy. I want to stop being this burden on everyone. I'm grasping for someone to understand me somehow, and I feel that no one really does. I don't know why that's so important... maybe because if ( Read more... )

Palliative.