I haven't posted on here in like forever... Maybe I'll start doing it again. I remember it being somewhat therapeutic to get my thoughts out. I'm working at Yesterdays as a cook. It's like old fashion diner food stuff. You have to listen the the oldies playing all day long every day. Same songs over and over. Getting deja vu... Every day ( Read more... )

"Once you make your argument, sit back and use a mysterious silence for effect."

That quote is straight from my horoscope. I thought it was pure genious. Unfortunately I didn't read todays horoscope until this evening. I didn't pose any arguments that I can think of, so I don't feel like I missed much.

I'm feeling better but making little progress to improve my situation apparently. I feeling like I'm at a crawl right now. I think I'm finally really coming to terms with the fact that this war will never end. I wish we could start a new war against ignorance and misinformation. Or maybe a war on war.... I'll have to refine the idea a little ( Read more... )

So I'm on this "program" that is run by the government. The object is re-habilitate me and help get me back to the point where I can deal with social anxieties and hold a job again. I think it could work. I'm on anti-anxiety meds right now and for the first time in a long time I feel more or less free from my anxieties. I even mustered the ( Read more... )

I think I put far too much emphasis on what I say. I feel like I think so hard about what other people are thinking/saying/feeling that I'm going to explode when I open my mouth. When people ask me prying/careless questions I am often tempted to lie in a very profuse manner. I love these people so goddamn much it makes me want to burst into ( Read more... )

Had my orientation day at work and it looks like I'll be training for the next three weeks. Almost done working on the pc that runs my lazer printer so I'll be up and running soon. Seeing two different shrinks and their both pretty cool so I'm happy about that. Anxious to start work on my Fiero GT project, but I need to give Brads dad the last ( Read more... )

So I got a job offer today. I'm going to be a chef at a high class resturant here. I actually applied for a dishwasher/prep-cook position but they want a cook. I'm excited but a little nervous. The people seem really nice and everything, but new jobs always scare the tuna outta me.

So I'm living in a quiet little town these days and I rather like it. Making more time to fine tune the material I'm presenting in my documentary and reading lots. Currently reading the Book of Five Rings my Miyamato Musashi. Sort of like a martial artists bible but it's widely considered to be a book of strategy that can be adapted to life in ( Read more... )

Ok, I've been spewing out a lot of bullshit past and present and it's time to catch up a little on what's actually been going on ( Read more... )

I'm going to give the people what they want. I'm going to give them back what they gave me. I'm going to show them what the system did for me, and how grateful I am for this new revolution. I entered in the cage fights here in Sioux Falls. Putting my name on a list is really all I'm doing on the outside, but I'm really showing them what I've ( Read more... )