I have been back for three months. In three months I have been haunted by every ex  I have ever had. I have been haunted by men who weren't even my ex's.

First there was Mike. I was still pregnant and his pregnant girlfriend was in line in front of me at the grocery store. I had the very strong urge to shove her into the counter and threaten her ( Read more... )

Well since my last post I have been to jail, runaway from home, gotten engaged, gotten pregnant,gone back to jail, broke off the engagement, gone back to jail, and given birth. What a wonderful year ( Read more... )

This weekend I went to Harlen Iowa.... This was the dumbest trip ever. First of all I thought that Jeremy and I were a couple when I agreed to go otherwise the meeting of the family wouldn't have happened. But I went because I thought that he was my boyfriend. Now this doesn't mean that because we werent that he was out there flirting and checking ( Read more... )

I wish that mike was something/ someone that I could understand. I am consistantly sad because of the things that he says to me. I am genuinly disappointed when he is disappointed with me. But I can't bring myself to tell Jeremy that what we have just can not be.  I love way to much the way that I feel when I am wiht Jeremy. I love the way he looks ( Read more... )

If you could step ( Read more... )

I really am a whore. I get tired of one thing and I move on to the next. I am tired of Dan...So I have moved my attention to a boy...not a man, but a boy, Josh. What the hell was I thinking. That's just it...I wasn't. I wasn't thinking at all, all I saw was his hair and his smile and the way he looked at me and the way that he smelled. That is what ( Read more... )

He lives across town but it feels like he lives all the way across the country. I never see him and when I do it is a short glimpse here and there. He asked me to get back together with him. I want to, Oh god do I want to. I just don't know if I can. Can I handle the stress and the pressure? I guess that is a stupid question.  I mean I did it for 5 ( Read more... )

One night and my life is over. One night filled with bd decisions. All I wanted to do was get high and get laid. I thought that I had it all in the bag. An man that I knew didn't just want me for sex, a guy that I knew I could sleep with and still be cool with, a guy that would share his shit and a guy that I felt comfortable being stoned around. " ( Read more... )

I can still smell his colgon in my hair though I have showered again and again to rid myself of it. I can still hear the many apologies for the different reasons. I can still feel his hands searching for a ticklish spot and I can see the smile on his face and the sound of his laugh as he found one. I can still see the look on his face just before ( Read more... )

Rain rain go away, 
Come again another day, 
All the world is waiting for the sun. 
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

How is it that everytime things start to get a little rough I want to run away and hide. How is it that I can find comfort in a cute smile and a sweet kiss. Comfort that I should ( Read more... )