it's now an official all-nighter because the sky is becoming light. my trash can is filled with used tea bags (caffeinated, every one) and this paper is just about where I wanted it. there's just enough time for a nap, but it might be a bad idea to lie down at this point. instead, I'll listen to pretty music and watch the sun rise. then I'll get ( Read more... )

I am becoming addicted to footnotes and Burt's Bees Lip Balm, to cold water from the tap and moroccan mint green tea. I'm losing track of what's happened on each day, or even what day it is. Easy to do when you've spent most of the countless last hours in the same room, sitting in the same chair, writing and rewriting the same paper which, though ( Read more... )

at long last, I've been assasinated, which means that I can walk around this campus without constantly shooting suspicious glances at every person who passes me. I can return to a life free of paranoia and waiting outside of people's classes for them to emerge and present their asses to me on a silver platter. in a few days, I won't even talk about ( Read more... )

It was absolutely torrential this morning, and I almost didn't make it to class simply because I didn't feel like getting out of bed. But I braved the dying rain and the rising wind, and the prof was late so I didn't have to say. "Desolee! Je me suis levee trop tard!" (with appropriate accents, of course ( Read more... )

4:30 am is a funny time. it's not quite late and it's not quite early. the time between 4 and 5 am seems to be the grey area between night and morning; even though literally, of course, it doesn't start getting grey (and then washed out blue and then pale pink) until a bit later. more to the point, it's a funny time to have one's airport shuttle ( Read more... )

this is being up at 3 am, for the fifth night in a row. and some of those nights went so much later than 3 that they became early, watching the fresh daylight form on my ceiling. it's okay because none of it was for academic reasons. not even this one, even though from midnight to now I was baking cookies (for seminar! so it's academic!) and ( Read more... )

"He had not stopped desiring her for a single instant. He found her in the dark bedrooms of captured towns, especially in the most abject ones, and he would make her materialize in the smell of dry blood on the bandages of the wounded, in the instantaneous terror of the danger of death, at all times and in all places. He had fled from her in an ( Read more... )

Indeed. What a weekend. Somehow I've managed to be not-behind and in some cases, ahead, on the work I have to do this week. Though I have two papers coming up and also my last frisbee tournament, and so I project falling behind no matter how much extra reading I have already done for modern epic. This is all such a surprise because of how much ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just feel like sitting in my room (which is mine and mine only a lot more often these days) and listening to music. I think that I did this a lot in high school, but now it seems to be something which has to be scheduled in along with writing papers, doing work, sleeping, seeing friends, etc. In other words, everything. I cherish Friday ( Read more... )

well, that's that. after canvassing and staying up until 3 and waking up to no more answers and finding out by constantly refreshing news pages about the concession, after getting depressed and then angry and then angrier until I kicked the wall in the english department and burst into tears, and came back and watched the concession speech... I don ( Read more... )