hello everyone. you need to go add my
NEW LIVEJOURNAL
slapinthe_face
all of you kidds on my friends page
i read your entries every time but
if you groan everytime you see MINE on your friends page...
don't worry about adding me.
otherwise, i want you all to be my friends again
now go add it like it's your job.

i'm fucking sick of being the only one with any kind of fucking interest... i'm sick of being the so-called "ringleader" (which is why i disliked the title of it in the first place, that and because wanting/needing control makes me feel disgusting) and i'm sick of convincing other people to do crazy things and i'm sick of being the last one to ( Read more... )

losing track and losing count.. did we stop caring when we found no need? i'd like to mix things, love and dramatics, acrylics and oil, cocaine and heroin. let me know, i'll tell you now i won't be confused. there's beauty in masochistic desperation, we had that in common. speedball.

He'd caught the one reason hidden among many. To feel alright. He asked me how I felt without them.
Confused, I told him.

i'm in love,
with so many things at once.

it's incredible and a little bit mind-blowing and sometimes you have to remember how to breathe.

and i know i'm not alone. but i wonder sometimes, you reading this, or you on my friends page, do you understand this? do you feel that too?

if not, you're really missing out.

sometimes ( Read more... )

MY BIGGEST FEAR

is that my friends won't
want to go with me, live life?

and that i'll have to leave alone.

I've got a list of things I want to read that keeps growing and growing. I almost took my bike and went to the library today but then I remembered it's at Lisa's. Raegan Butcher, Derrick Jensen, Emma Goldman... you're all going to have to wait ( Read more... )

my mom got me this thing the other day. it's a little dangly frame thing, she says she's going to frame it with pictures of me and her. it says "a daughter is a little girl who grows up to be a friend." and it made me really, really happy, but at the same time it was kinda bittersweet because i don't think she'll want to be my friend when i'm older ( Read more... )

I want to dance and never stop.
I want to fall in love.
I want to lose control.
I want to change minds.
I want to play on stage.
And then dance to it.
[Repeat.]