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i want a guy to show up singing fly me to the moon.  true story ( Read more... )

 Had to fill something out with the doc the other day. It was all about my symptoms and where the liines between mania and normal and depressin and normal actually is. 
All I came away with frrom it is that right now, my life is a series of ups and downs and I don't think i've felt normal in awhile. That got to me. I feel like nothing is working. I ( Read more... )

It feels good to be back. Better to know that I'm doing something active to keep myself together.I have to start taking this thing seriously now, and I wasn't doing that before.But this time, I'm actually invested in keeping my head on straight.

After being in the hospital 15 days (like last time) I am still required to do a partial hospitalzation ( Read more... )

I'm going shopping and wanting ihop tommorow. Anyone want to come? I'm doing it because I'm going back to the hospital. I fucked up, i hurt myself and i need to go. Now that i feel better knowing i have a plan in place, I feel like nothing ever happened. But I know from last time that there are going to be things that I'm going to need. I'm going ( Read more... )

Otakon.

needs to take me to see iron man. 
I missed the saturday fun with the healys. 
someone correct this situation. 
that's as good an update as anything. 

Today I didn't know where i was for a minute. Had no idea where i was, what i was holding, what i was doing. Looked around and nothing was familiar.

Finally, it clicked and things slowly came back into focus. I started recognizing people around me, that i was at work, that i was cleaning something. The radio was playing a Journey song. I think my ( Read more... )

It's quite possible that he doesn't really care. Maybe I was a convient addition into what he thought he wanted with his life. All such wonderful thoughts and feelings under lock and key ( Read more... )

 It's like being hit in the chest with a rock ( Read more... )