there were words here. 
i decided sharing them was perhaps the worse thing to do . 
Yesterday I was bad. Very very bad. Almost wound back up in the hospital, this time not by my will. 
Today I am better. Not completly great, but I'll take better over edging toward dead. 
Yesterday there was warmth, after the storm had passed and comfort and strong arms ( Read more... )

I'm rushing around at work, basically feeling like shit. I'm still not really over this stomach bug. I'm kinda grumpy ( Read more... )

I'm an idiot. I talk a really good game when it comes to men, but ...there's very little follow through with me. I wanted to be all *grrr* and sing gloria gaynor and erykah badu songs - 
think you better call tyrone.....
but i didn't stick to it. Somewhere around four o'clock yesterday, i gave in and called him. Because , yes..I was worried. He was ( Read more... )

I missed two days of work this week because i was sick. not just "hey i have a cold" sick,but some real deal pain going on in my abdomen. Writhing pain. I was vomitting, I was crying because it hurt so bad, and i wasn't sleeping ( Read more... )

A recent conversation with a friend in which we were hashing out our very similar situations has peeked my curiousity. Now, I know that none of you are the same by any means, but I decided that polling the guys on this might give me a point to start from. So , aid in my research.

What makes you want to get into a relationship with a person? What do ( Read more... )

This must be what it feels like to be my friends, who have continually watched me hurt myself over and over. I have a pension for distruction, and will break myself apart it anyway possible. I like to hurt ( Read more... )

 Making girls skinnier, one Sweet Valley High book at a time

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Is there something about me that makes men freak out? or scares them? Am i seriously not the girl you get into a relationship with? I understand that I'm intense at times, but you know what, I'm proud of that. It's who I am. But does that intenseness put people off? What directly the fuck is it about me that always makes me fall just short of being ( Read more... )

i was walking around today in thruway, trying to find something to drown my insanity in today, and after spending five minutes in the ice cream aisle and getting disgusted, i had a very funny thought: 
"Self pity makes my dick soft."

Brian Kinney-isms need to be on t-shirts.