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Inevitability.
I tried really hard to not have to withdraw from the semester. But I can’t do it. I’m fucking myself up again. I’m not able to keep the balance between work and school. I need to see my friends. I can’t keep bouncing around like this.
I’ve spent two days staying awake , not taking my medication so that I could work through the night ( Read more... ) -
okay. I admit it. I'm in love with it.
So I have this album on my ipod, that has a song called Dorothy at Forty, and when it came on today, I went into giggle fits and tried to call you on my cell, but...i didn't have your number. So anyway!!!! Here ya go, just cause , you know. For giggle purposes.
okay.
I admit it.
I'm a fucking fan girl.
Dorthy At Forty - Cursive
Dorothy, I know you've ( Read more... ) -
JAMIE!!!!!!JAMIE JAMIE JAMIE!!!
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Lookie at the icon!!! see!!! it's green and all emeraldy like and stuff and i thought you should see it in case you want to use it or something and okay i really really miss you and am going to make a weekend to come and see you and i've had mountain dew today which makes me very much ( Read more... ) -
the ugly organ
I'm warning everyone right now. This is where I get all types of personal. and broken in my writing. if you can't deal with it, don't read the entry. I know damn well that there is a better forum for this. I'm not a fucking idiot. But I'm a little to pissed right to give a fuck.
After getting out of work today, I had the brillant idea that cleaning ( Read more... ) -
the aftermath of the hospital
Okay. I get it. Hospitals stays are not cheap, especially without insurance. I'm on board with that. And maybe this is just angry ranting.
but really -
Why the fuck do i have three charges on my statement for urine testing?!!!? I pissed once into a cup! 'xuse me, what the fuck?!!! And your charging me for leaving the hospital???! Pardon me, but i ( Read more... ) -
things i hate
freezing my ass off because this college has never heard of heat, apparently ( Read more... ) -
i feel like i should be singing a rhianna song or something...
I think I've lost my mind.I ...I can't stop. This is addiction at it's worse. I feel dirty, ashamed and wrong. just wrong ( Read more... ) -
as i am
This is what I think ( Read more... ) -
if i deserve this chance....
Why does it have to hurt so much?
Maybe this is fucked up of me. Maybe after all the scars we left on each other, and all the chunks we take out of each other, maybe this..maybe this is the thing that makes me foul. and a horrible person.
Love is clumsy. It is an animal in you. Once your in it, it can choke you ,crush you, or raise you up and give ( Read more... ) -
Sigur Ros
There is a gentleman.
We did go on a date.He held the door open for me, pulled out my chair, opened the car door for me, and even called me when he got home to say what a wonderful time he had.
He is soft spoken, gentle and kind.
He understands what I went through in the hospital. He saw it first hand. There is no explaning the difference between ( Read more... )