it's been months since I posted here. I'm sorry. I feel so fucking empty. I don't know what to do.

Oh god. I have to fuck everything up don't I. I'm sorry.

“Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.”
- Gerard Way

Please help me with this situation? It's about a friend I have with ME and depression.

Under the cut :)

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So I got prescribed prozep, which is a form of prozac.
And so much for regularly updating this journal - it's been months. I guess I fail at that, too.

Had a good time in Germany :) Can't really be bothered to explain in detail.. I am SO tired :L
I didn't want to come home, it was weird. I feel bad but I didn't miss my family at all really. It was only 12 days but i think that's wrong? I love my family but  Ididn't miss them at all. And I cried on the plane, silently, of course. That was SO ODD. I ( Read more... )

Going to Germany tomorrow so I'm kinda excited for that, but I'm SO tired and stressed, and I have to be up at 5am tomorrow :( I'm hoping a mixture of coffeee and adrenalin will keep me going. Plus is am so fat I doubt i'll even fit on the plane - I'm not even joking ( Read more... )

fuck fuck fuck.
Everything is going wrong.

I just feel like fading away and relapsing,
And i've been okay for almost 6 months now.
I can't be bothered to fight it anymore,
About time. I know it was too good to be true. I didn't deserve to be 'better' I'm just a fat fuck who can't do anything right and doesn't deserve anything better than this shit

Had the weirdest dream about self harming. And I have / remember like 2 dreams a year, seriously. So when I do dream, it's really scary because they are always so REAL. So, if i've used up my two dreams this year ~ they've both been disturbing and unsettling and horrible. yay ( Read more... )

Eww Christmas.
Feel like shit, have to pretend I don't because my parents think i'm fine.
Try not to cry when someone say I've gained weight. Someone at work. Who doesn't even know me that well.
Geethanks.
&& I will start the new year single. Fun.
I'm up all night, sleep all morning. I am so fucked when we go back to school.

On the upside, new years ( Read more... )