Thanksgiving has come and gone, I don't know what it is about the holidays that always makes me feel so empty inside. I just read my entry on Thanksgiving from last year and it really is the exact same feeling. No matter how good or bad everything is going the holidays always bring the same feeling. Maybe someday that will be different. I hope so ( Read more... )

I wish things were different. I'm not entirely sure what it is exactly that I would change, and I guess that is part of the problem. If only I could pinpoint the exact problem then maybe I could make it all go away. I finally made an appointment with that doctor that kathryn recommended to me. I am a little bit nervous, but honestly am also sort of ( Read more... )

1. Do you still talk to the first person you fell the hardest for ( Read more... )

it is interesting. the way punishment is used. the way punishment does not work. it doesn't matter if it is someone punishing someone else or if it is someone punishing themselves. why don't we learn?

The past month or so I've been feeling really disheartened about life in general. I have spoken to several people about the meaning of life, I know that sounds cliche, but I dont' really mean the meaning of life in the sense that it is mostly spoken about but more in the sense of what gets you to keep going and get out of bed every morning. Well ( Read more... )

The 'Deep Stuff' Survey ( Read more... )

1. What is a question that people ask you that always gets on your nerves ( Read more... )

its over. the wall is up and its not being broken down. i'm sorry but the price is too much to pay. the chaos in my mind is too much to handle. and so, on we go with life.

she's right. they are not my friends. i should quit starbucks. i really do like my job though. it is too bad. i just wish i could find some peace. i was finally feeling like i belonged but i feel like a complete outsider again.

how do you tell someone that you can't be friends with them? i guess you could just end all contact with them, but really, you need them to know. you need them to understand, even if it won't really affect them. i'm sorry but i cannot be your friend and be okay at the same time. i drove home tonight in a trance, i am not sure how i made it home. i ( Read more... )