So remember this beautiful car...


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I don't want to "talk" tonight.

I have so much of what I want right now and it feels like it's going to fall apart. I guess you cant have everything. I am feeling so torn apart right now. I do not know what to do. Chris has sacrificed himself and life and moved here to be with me. He quit his job and found one here. He left his family and got out of Granite City. He's been here ( Read more... )

Come the beginning of December you can see the happiness and cheer in people really come out. Especially in my mom. This is her absolute favorite time of the year and she gets so into it. Our house is already decorated and last weekend the family went out and we cut down our Christmas tree. It's the little things like that, that make me appreciate ( Read more... )

The end of yesterday was much better. And today is too. That is all.

Why am I so sad all the time? Seriously, I think there is something wrong with me. There's no reason to feel this way ( Read more... )

... it's gone. No more Coheed board. Ever. It's actually kinda sad. It's where a lot of good times were spent. I met some of my best friends on there, my boyfriend, and got to know a great band. It had some great times and it had some bad times. This is kinda the worst time for this to be happening too because I have been down a little lately about ( Read more... )

I never update this thing. Why? I don’t know. Maybe because I’m not depressed anymore. Maybe because I get all of my thoughts out on the phone with Chris when I have things on my mind, I don’t need to type it out to get it off my mind. Because I never really used this journal to update people on my life, I used it as a way to let out my thoughts ( Read more... )

Sometimes life is hard. Things don’t always go as planned and never come easy. But isnt that what you are supposed to expect in life? If you expect any more, you'll end up getting hurt. So maybe we should all expect the minumum and feel blessed for the better things. I am blessed to have the family I have, always have been. I felt I would never get ( Read more... )

sometimes i'd rather no attention at all and to be completely ignored than to get attention and then be thrown away.

so to those of you who have ever shown me affection and told me you liked me and then turned around and ignored me or stopped showing affection: just know that it hurts and i still feel it.