I was told not to LJ. But I am no longer the president and I like to be a dick when I can be. So I am gonna LJ. But no one really knows what I am doing right now... so its only entertaining to me. Bye.
I had a nice long post here. But after I wrote it, i read it over and decided to delete it.
I'll sum it up for ya. I am slowly looseing everything and everyone I care about. I feel like I am desperatly trying to hold on and help those I care about, but I am getting no where.