oh and the crises charity samaritans (sp?) emailed me back. she seems nice. we shall see. haven't eaten in 2 days now....i love it :D

ps currently experiencing a rape flashback while trying to do this post. can feel his dick going in me and everything. fuck shit fuck.
( trigger imagesss cutttttt )

She said yes.

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Over blackberry messanger. Put a picture of a ring and red roses on my display picture. What a thing for her to wake up to. We shall see what happens :D god I love her so so much! She'll understand why I asked her via phone, I'm shy :P

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becki brought me this a few days ago and as soon as i took it out the gift bag i went 'becki im scared of teddy bears' (i have been since 13yrs old , dont judge me haha). should have seen her face drop and she spent the next hour going 'it not scary, it cute. tell him he cute. he got roses, he cute'. haa i warmed to him and the other little bear by ( Read more... )

just because itll cheer me up. only letting friends see this obvs as its private pictures :D
( jesus christ huge photos. shes my world. )

for the contact help! hope i wrote the user name right haha.

anyway sent this email to a mental health support site

'been suffering really bad depression over the recent few months brought on by binge eating followed by anorexic tendencies, laxative abuse and self hatred. i feel like im losing my mind but have phone anxiety and cant get in touch ( Read more... )

Oh and both my legs are fucked up from cutting them. I have wh carved into the one. Best get around to the 'ore' part of the word. Because well that's what I must be, letting my uncle pound into me ( Read more... )

Well yes according to these weird flashbacks iv been having. I didn't even know this happened to me before I had the flashbacks a few days ago.. Guess I blocked it out of my head? My life is fucked. My friend gave me a number for a mental health team but I'm too scared to phone. Spend most of my mornings crying now. Been binging for 2 weeks but as ( Read more... )

haha no doubt about it. fasted for 6/7 days for 3 whole weeks and today iv just been binging. liike i have all week. taking too many laxs, arms a mess from cutting, hating life.