Every couple of months I take a pregnancy test.
and every couple of months I am disappointed...
Im not trying to get pregnant, dont get me wrong... but babies have been my dream since i was like 10. I do everything in my power to prevent them, but I am just continuously hoping one strong swimmer gets through.
hahah my god, im a horrible human being

Sooo...
Facebook tells me that my boyfriend just joined ZOOSK... a site for "sexy singles to meet and have fun"...
yeah.
"uneasy" is how I feel about this.
REAL uneasy

oddly enough...
things are working out kind of nice for me lately.
dudes.
chicks.
life in general.
I have come a long way since a couple weeks ago.
I'm kind of happy, to be honest.

I guess I'll have to let it go.

and it's over ( Read more... )

Our battles are repetitious, if not broken poetry ( Read more... )

And if we don't make it, know that I loved you all along.

Today I had to do the job of an undertaker, grave-digger, priest and the mourning family member... all at once.

it would be nice if i could go a week without bawling my eyes out.
but just as the 7-day mark comes close, something shitty happens and the waterworks start.
I'm so tired...

R.I.P Sweet Pea.
Love you...

"My problem is that I know I love you and I know you don't love me back..."
"I don't want to burst your bubble... but I don't even say that to my mom."

wow.
my heart hurts.

I feel like shooting myself again ( Read more... )