( why the hell did i believe you?! )

i love that my best friend keeps making plans with me but then finds something better to do & it seems as though my boyfriend doesn't really want much to do with me & won't answer my phone calls ( Read more... )

i'm actually scared right now. i'm so full of self hate & disgust, i'm going to hurt myself. i need someone to hug me & tell me it's going to be okay.

but there's no one.

i'm all alone.

Had to see Mr. Leigh Malloy today. The sight of him actually makes me want to be sick in my mouth. I can't believe that entire year of my life was real, how disgusting, naive & completely stupid I was. But it was definitely a learning experience so I guess I wouldn't take it back. It's weird that it still bothers me, I can rarely hold a grudge ( Read more... )

i'm so confused about life, it's making me feel sick. the more i think about it the more i hate living in a capitolist society because there's no chance of things changing, i can only see it getting worse. our whole species is a plague on the planet, slowly deteriorating it, bringing it towards an inevitable end where are worthless lives will ( Read more... )

Just because he looks at you, doesn't mean that he's thinking about how pretty you are or how he likes you or how he completes you. Because to him you are nothing. It's realizing that your sunglasses never really looked that good because they never really did fit right.I got off work early, at 3, today & called Garret & said I was going to come ( Read more... )

Snooping is BAD!! I definitely found something (a letter) accidentally today & read it because I'm a bad, nosey person. The contents of the letter, of course, managed to both hurt me & make me a little upset. The thing is it's not a big enough thing/deal to confront him about because I'd have to admit I snooped. @#$#?&! Ergh...damn me ( Read more... )

i know that no one can affect someone's happiness except the person themself, but when i look into his eyes i see this intense sadness & i wish more then anything that i could heal him. i feel so helpless because i can't show him how he is to me, & to everyone else; this beautiful, talented, amazing person with so much potential. instead he's ( Read more... )

I think I'm in love. Okay, I know I'm in love. Yes, I fell in love. But I'm terrified. And how do you tell that to someone? I don't want him to say it back if he doesn't really & truly 100% mean it...but I don't want to say it if he doesn't feel it too. !!#$@!@$^@# ERGH...feelings suck! But it's also the most amazing thing ever, I've never ( Read more... )

I wish I was enough.
I wish I could make you happy.
I feel so useless.