so...in regards to my "i want to die" post last night, i have figured it all out, for the time being anyways. i just need to make the conscious decision to make moonshine a priority like i do with school, work, garret & my friends. so i'll be having my lessons on monday & then going out AT LEAST two other times during the week. if it doesn't ( Read more... )

yes, i'm a failure, it's time to admit that. i can't do anything right, i can't have one part of my life on track let alone balance it all. i've never put it in a full year's work at school and done my best, i always have a meltdown and fuck everything up. i'm a horrid, lazy daughter. i'm terrible with money. i procrastinate about everything ( Read more... )

so school's back in... my schedule is ( Read more... )

i'm extremely bored right now & i really wish i had a pack of cigarettes. the cute guy {dylan} who's been doing carpenter work on the pet store they're opening across the street from jessi's is supposed to come hang out with us tonight. i think i'm gonna make jessi go take pictures with me or something because i dont want to sit here anymore. ( Read more... )

garret came home, it was tres surprising and made me extremely happy. i know it's lame but it made me feel so much better just to see him. why am i such a silly girl?

ethan says i have to go see the lesbians on tv.

choi!

i guess i should start this with a warning...i'm feeling pretty emo. feel free to click away & ignore heartsick rantings, really, i would ( Read more... )

the general rudie show was like the best fucking sex of my whole life. lauren, jessi, eric & i all went together & jason was their with his friend Q (ha?) when we got there but other then that there was probably...10 other people there. but fuckin' eh, when they came on, we skanked with our whole friggin' hearts! the band was trying this " ( Read more... )

( need i say more? )

i'm starting to feel like just another name on a very long list. i'd like to see it differently but i'm too cynical to believe anything else.

proof that romance is not dead, the sweetest pick up line ever: "i'm going to take sarah back to my trailer & fuck her. i have beds." i kid you not.

( summer nights )