Why do I do this to myself? Sometimes I feel I need to talk to some random guy and make myself feel better when actuality it doesn't make anythin better. This guy I'm talkin to is bein real nice but I don't care for him. I don't care for many others anymore either. I've had a headache all day and it's not gettin better...I'm waitin for things to ( Read more... )

It's late but I just think too much. Although I fell asleep quite a lot from the movie tonight, I'm still scared from it. Just thinkin about the ending freaked me out on my drive way home ( Read more... )

I feel like sayin stuff. I guess that's the point of a journal...huh? I don't know where to start. I guess work? I haven't done much the past 2 weeks but just work my butt off. The money will definently be put into good use and I'm sooo excited. It's basically the only exciting thing in my life right now ( Read more... )

It's sooo hard to maintain happiness when no one lets you, no one talks to you, no one even cares....blahhhhhhh whateverrr

what I want to write about but I just have the feelin of writing something. I'm working 2 jobs right now...its been so crazy bc I work at my new job when I don't work at my old job givin me basically no days off...it sucksssssss. I know in the end it will be good bc the money is goin for a good cause...hehehe...eurotrip baby! Next summer is going ( Read more... )

I hate doin that. It gets me in a lot of trouble. I'm not sure how to put everythin into words anymore. Some things are just is...I guess I'll try ( Read more... )

Looking at your picture from when we first met...you gave me a smile that I could never forget. Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind...the days would blend cause we stayed up all night. You and I were everything, everything to me ( Read more... )

Some words were better left unsaid....
Some things were better left undone.....
Some people were better left unborn...

I try and try over and over again to make amends to the one that hurt me the most. But I just can't. It's too hard and too annoyin. I get more upset more hurt more everythin. All the anger turns to hate when we talk....but why do I feel differently when we dont? whatever...

I feel pretty okay right now. I'm doin pretty ok in school and life in general i guess. It's just...I duno. I don't know how life gets so complicated and full of pain. I gave another guy a chance the other night. Went to the movies...it was cool. Now I feel I got rejected because he doesn't talk to me anymore. Doesn't that just suck? I feel that I ( Read more... )