well piercing is starting to pick up a little.. soon it might be worth my time. my relationship... to whatever extent it was has disolved.. that's unfortunate.. I'm sad and hurt.. but I know it's for the best. he was a rebound relationship.. and it's sad my rebound relationship is hands down the best relationship i've ever had. anyhow I'm down.. of ( Read more... )

so I just have bad taste in everything.. but even though ck I still think if I can get my head right and just a little money in my pocket I'll be a good piercer... and even though the relationship is going down an ending path it's the most lucrative thing I've had ( Read more... )

so.. life has been okay.. I've got one serious problem and two small problems.. and a bunch of good things... first a small problem.. boy trouble.. I have an awesome dude in my life.. when we started he was a roy.. but then sex faded.. so if it wasn't going to be sexual.. well I started getting serious.. and as is tradition.. I started feeling ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night.. Jake and this chick that was his girlfriend and I were eating some place.. and she dumps me on thier behalf.. we were kind of in a trio thing.. I was a little bit upset because I thought Jake and I were closer than to have his woman speak on thier behalf.. annd yeah I was hurt cause I care for jake.. but I understood.. ( Read more... )

so I decided it was a joke... I decided it when I went to talk to one of my girlfriends about it abd she was on the conspiracy therory that the girl was threatening.. usually when people jump on my bandwagon it means I'm just suffering from parinia.... with the exception of all the times shad cheated on me.. well the paranioa not the bandwagon ( Read more... )

so... Jake and I went to the store. While there we see one of his exes. I walk over to her and give her a hug. She says that she's sick and so I respond with a want me to beat you up.. beat the cold out of you.. to which she responds yeah.. but remember you fuck with one derby girl you fuck with 30.. and when she said it I had the feeling she wasn' ( Read more... )

So there's this girl.. she was someone growing up that everyone I knew idolized. I wasn't a fan of hers. I thought of her as a slut with no disreguard to others feelings. She carried around the boys she fucked as trophys and would cut them down continually. She was catty in the sweetest of ways and though I found her a waste of my time she was very ( Read more... )

so I'm down on money bad.. really bad..I've een thinking about letting it all go and having me and the pups live in the car.. but honestly as much as I would like to i couldn't do that to my kids. I may hitchhike to dallas for fetish ball.. I need some good feelings.. can't afford to drive.. and all my trying to get a caravan to go seems to be ( Read more... )

I go out of my way to not talk about our relationship with him.. everyonce in a while I update him as to where I stand. I don't need to know where he is.. I'm pretty sure he's happy being at whatever stage I'm wanting to be at. I give him shit about not asking me out.. but it's not a big deal to me.. I don't care if we are dating or not.. ( Read more... )

so I was hanging out with jake... we're actually talking about dating.. but I still won't be his girl ( Read more... )