the first out door party was tonight it wasn't the best ever but it was good and i'm glad they're back!

people change. of course most people know this, but being my pessimistic self i never thought it to be true. then i looked at one of the most incredibly changed people that i've ever known...myself. i wasn't always the superficial power hungry pretentious person that many have grown to love over the past couple of years. once i was a true rebel ( Read more... )

what can be said about friendships? to everyone they are subjective, as they differ in just about every scenario. it's a difficult topic to make any broad statements about. i think friendship is the most important form of relationship yyou can have with another person. in my experience a lot of the time a friendship can come and go. i could ( Read more... )

i feel like i'm falling deeper into darkness. i'm just bitter and negative. it's a nice change, actually. i hate the bubbly spirits of the people around here, i want to punch them all in the face.

i just want to address a couple of concerns concerning my apparently less than flattering image. i was reading the nfs message board and it was fucking ridiculous. it's not like i care that much, i mean i understand the face that not everyone is going to like you and there will always be something bad to say about a person. what i don't ( Read more... )

[ ] I am straight ( Read more... )

some memories always stay with us. i read once that smells invoke memories the easiest, and now that it's getting warmer and i step outside one such memory sticks out firmly in my mind. it was i think two summers ago and it was the greatest period of change that i have ever encountered in my life. the guys i saw changed me, my new group of ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63% Stability |||||| 26% Orderliness |||||| 23% Empathy |||||||||||| 50% Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63% Mystical |||||||||||| 43% Artistic |||||| 30% Religious |||||||||||| 50% Hedonism |||||||||||||||||| 76% ( Read more... )

i'll be honest, 2005 is not looking like it's my year. the past few months have been some of the most trying i've ever experienced. i'm by no means an optimist, but i think only good can come of times like these. i've learned a lot about guys, friends, and just life in general. people are not always what they seem. someone will be completely ( Read more... )

i want my livejournal to be like cool and stuff but i don't know how to do it. i look at other people's and mine just sucks. i want something dark. anyway so my life has continued to be extremely filled with drama and it's getting old. so really not much new, you can never trust some friends and some you can always rely on.