i'm not OK with myself. i've come to the realization that there is not one aspect of my life that i wouldn't change if i could. i'm not asking for anyone to feel bad for me in any way whatsoever; i hate that shit more than anything. i'm just so unhappy with everything all the time. why do i even live here? i never come home or see my mom...or my ( Read more... )

does this feel like the longest week ever to anyone else? it does to me. i have some sweet plans tomorrow<33 jessica locked her keys in the car....while it was running....in south weymouth. not a good night for her, but she's coming to get me because i'm like the best friend ever and shit. <3.

so there's this boy ( Read more... )

i'm giving thanks for life today. my cousin was stabbed in the head, 3 inches into his brain. he went through five hours of surgery last night and it looks like he's going to make it. a year and a half older than me, and he almost died last night. this cousin was extremely close to me and my brother while we were growing up and went everywhere ( Read more... )

Well, it's Halloween and I'm dressed up as Marilyn Monroe. I can't wait to go to this party and get the hell out of my house so my mom stops bitching at me.
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haulyourworst_ex goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as marilyn monroe.hail_heartbreak gives you 7 white passionfruit-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.he_bought_roses ( Read more... )

im fucking pissed right now
im ready to freak out
just waited two hours to get picked up, not even going out now
i fucking hate this shit
this is why im not friends with so many people
no one is reliable
i need to get out right now
this shit makes me freak out. so sick to my stomache
anxiety
fuck yourselves.

I need someone to keep me out of trouble, because obviously I can't do that. I got caught skipping school today for something drug related which I'll leave out of this because that was horrible. So I am grounded right now (and for a week), and I'm about to go food shopping. This should be pretty gay considering the thousand chances for awkward ( Read more... )

so school started today. it was everything i knew it would be- terrible. hahah. on the other hand i get to see people and shit, and the weekends will be more special, and when o.b.dub comes home we fucking party every day of the week bitches. I'll be getting my license and shit which means no more curfew. hahah PEACE. I'll never come home, ( Read more... )

I don't want to be one of those people that say i hate everyone i know, blah blah blah, etc. but i really feel like i could sit and nit pick every person i know and realize shit about every one and not like any of them. Obiously im not going to do that. I just need stability and closure. i feel like i have no one to lean on right now. not even bill ( Read more... )

i have so much shit I'm going through and i can't talk about it to anyone. it sucks. i'm having a lot of problems and it's not cool.

:(