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Is this having self-respect, taking no BS? Or is this "bitchy"?
It’s kind of amazing and mortifying that I have had this LJ for 10 years. The memories... The inane things I would write about… The way I used to think… *shudders*
Ten years ago today (accounting for California calendar) I apparently was very excited for Gravitation.
I have reached a point in my life where I want to pursue what is better for me ( Read more... ) -
When I watch fireworks, I can't help but feel insignificant, and my eyes begin to well up with tears
I was ok with lying to myself. Until I wasn’t ( Read more... ) -
It's cuz of the wheelchair
“Haven’t had a dream in a long time.” Until last night. It’s the first dream I remembered having in who knows how long. Not the usual suspects either. The only thing I can remember is that A was in it. Why…? If I believed more strongly in premonitions, I would probably think it’s a sign about the future to come. The road to recovery it going to be ( Read more... ) -
Comatose
This is turning into the longest week. Sort of. It’s already Wednesday though. Paradoxical feelings. Every once in a while, I feel like my heart stops. My chest hurts. I didn’t eat breakfast, but that’s probably because my will to wake up in the morning has nearly vanished. So dramatic. Listlessness. I catch myself staring off into space. Yesterday ( Read more... ) -
My Personal Life is Chaos
I am sinking. The combination of everything that has happened over the past few months and again the last 36 hours is rearing its ugly head. Maybe I’m just exhausted from not getting enough restful sleep, or the pain from playing taiko in the hot sun while hung-over may be affecting me. But regardless, I feel like shit. I am sinking ( Read more... ) -
I'm always so tired
The year 2010 is almost over. It's really weird how time is flying so quickly, and it feels like a lifetime ago that I was a student living in SD ( Read more... ) -
Craptastic
Back to square one yet again. Makin' new friends... who are going to stay as friends. -_-
And I'd be fine with that... if I weren't mildly interested in one who already has an SO. Moving on.
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Adventures in Film
Good evening, World ( Read more... ) -
Ending the long hiatus
It's been forever and a day since my last entry, but I felt today was a good time to update. So much has happened since June ( Read more... ) -
Too groggy to work, too groggy to sleep
I took a short nap just now. I'm going to have trouble going to sleep =_= Frick.
My room hasn't gotten any more packed. It has gotten tons more messy though ( Read more... )