Illusions (17/25)
Title : Illusions (17/25)
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 17 - Longing
Summary : “I don’t want to lose you”
A/N :. C&C welcomed. This is from Kai's POV! ^^
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16
Yet again I feel his eyes on me. I need not look up to know that he is staring at me. Something still draws me to look up, to look at him, if only to see the unguarded emotions in his eyes. What does he want? Sometimes I can see the longing in his eyes, on others aloofness. I hate this. I am tired of all these.
“Break”
The slamming of the door on my way out felt good although I am pretty sure soon I will get one concerned guitarist or another to come and check on me. For now, I am glad for the reprieve from those prying eyes. I leant against the wall, shivering slightly in the cold, in my haste to get out the room, forgetting to take my coat with me. But then the early winter weather isn’t something that I cannot handle. I took a deep inhale of the calming nicotine, staring blankly out at the gloomy overcast sky.
****
“Wake up”
He grunted, ignoring my fingers prodding his sides. I took another look at my watch. Damn it. We are going to be late.
“Ruki… get up”
He cracked one eye open sleepily before returning to his light doze. Sometimes he can be really adorable, like a teddy bear that you just want to cuddle and not let go. I couldn’t help that thought from running through my mind even though I know he wouldn’t take the comment lightly. But then with his messed up blonde hair, baby cheeks and full lips, all I want to do is cuddle up to him. I giggled to myself at my totally girlish thoughts. Note to self, hang out less with Uruha. He is starting to influence me with all his characteristics. Now, back to the problem at hand. How does one wake up a vocalist who can sleep through an earthquake?
I knelt in front of him, watching him breathing steadily, sleeping so very peacefully. I clambered on his lap, straddling him, sitting myself on his thighs as he again looked up at me sleepily.
“Mmm?”
“We are going to be late”
He shuffled his hips, almost making me fall off before his arms reached around, supporting my back, my hands clutching on his shoulder for balance. He used the back of his hand to rub his eyes tiredly before again lacing his fingers behind me, staring up at me.
“I had a dream”
“Of?”
I shuffled slightly, making myself comfortable on his lap, fingers playing with the hair on his nape.
“You”
The seriousness on his face indicates that it wasn’t a good dream.
“It is just a dream, Ru-kun”
He just kept silent, his eyes searching for something in mine. His own fingers rise to the back of my head, pulling me down to meet him in a kiss, not like any other kisses that we shared, something desperate in this, something which scares me to no end. When we finally pulled apart, I find myself staring into a pair of sad brown eyes, unhidden by any colored contacts that he favored.
“What’s wrong?”
He shook his head, pulling me to him again, kissing my lips, my chin, nibbling on my neck, my collarbone, the desperation still in his moves. I wouldn’t deny him. I couldn’t deny him. But I just knew that something is not right. But for now, this is what he needs and it is what I will give him. I gasped when he pulled off my shirt, throwing it to the side, his mouth now attacking my neck, both of us having fetishes with it. I ran my fingers through his hair, massaging his scalp, enjoy the sensations he was laving on me. I could feel him growing hard beneath me as I pressed my body closer to his, kissing him hard, pulling away for a brief second to shed his tiresome shirt, nipping his lips, drawing a groan from him.
“Can I?”
I nodded at him, his fingers working on my pants, pulling it just low enough while mine freed him from his constricting pants. It was hurried from then on, him shuffling to grab at the lube in his back pocket, earning an amused look from me and a slightly abashed one from him, him preparing me minimally before quickly sheathing and slicking himself up.
“I don’t want to lose you”
I gasped out loud as he then thrust hard into me, not giving me any warning or time to adjust before setting a hard rhythm, something again unfamiliar to us but then not unwelcome, just unexpected. My fingers clenched around his nape, forcing myself to release him, knowing that it wouldn’t be comfortable for him, hands slipping to his shoulders, trying to hold myself up, barely achieving it. Our lips crushed together as I moved my hips against his, gasps leaving my lips each time he brushed against that spot, his eyes darkening as he pulled back to watch me, a feral look in his eyes. The unexpected spring shower fell on our sweaty bodies, giving us a reprise from the heat rising between us, soaking us through.
He held my back with one hand, the other reaching for me, stroking me hard, almost painfully while I battled between the need to thrust into that warm hand and the need to be filled by him. The sensations soon proved to be my downfall, I muffled my own scream as I bite down on his shoulder, and he too overcame by his own orgasm, milked out by my own tense body. I rested my head on his shoulder, absently licking the purpling bruise on his shoulder, him flinching slightly.
“We are soaked”
I laughed at his dry tone, pulling away from him, feeling him slip out from me as I leant back on my hands, face up to the dark sky, feeling the warm rain soaking me through and through. A soft noise from him, causing me to turn to him, he again with that look in his eyes.
“Ruki?”
He shook his head, leaning forward to kiss me again.
****
Funny how less than six month can change so much between us. I looked down at myself woefully; my own memories of us manage to arouse me easily. I ignored my own throbbing lower half, letting the cigarette between my fingers fall to the ground, its flame snuffed out as it hits the cement. I felt the first drops of the winter rain on my face as I lifted my face to the sky.
Rating : NC 17
Pairing : Ruki x Kai
Theme : IV - 17 - Longing
Summary : “I don’t want to lose you”
A/N :. C&C welcomed. This is from Kai's POV! ^^
Past chapters
Chptr 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16
Yet again I feel his eyes on me. I need not look up to know that he is staring at me. Something still draws me to look up, to look at him, if only to see the unguarded emotions in his eyes. What does he want? Sometimes I can see the longing in his eyes, on others aloofness. I hate this. I am tired of all these.
“Break”
The slamming of the door on my way out felt good although I am pretty sure soon I will get one concerned guitarist or another to come and check on me. For now, I am glad for the reprieve from those prying eyes. I leant against the wall, shivering slightly in the cold, in my haste to get out the room, forgetting to take my coat with me. But then the early winter weather isn’t something that I cannot handle. I took a deep inhale of the calming nicotine, staring blankly out at the gloomy overcast sky.
****
“Wake up”
He grunted, ignoring my fingers prodding his sides. I took another look at my watch. Damn it. We are going to be late.
“Ruki… get up”
He cracked one eye open sleepily before returning to his light doze. Sometimes he can be really adorable, like a teddy bear that you just want to cuddle and not let go. I couldn’t help that thought from running through my mind even though I know he wouldn’t take the comment lightly. But then with his messed up blonde hair, baby cheeks and full lips, all I want to do is cuddle up to him. I giggled to myself at my totally girlish thoughts. Note to self, hang out less with Uruha. He is starting to influence me with all his characteristics. Now, back to the problem at hand. How does one wake up a vocalist who can sleep through an earthquake?
I knelt in front of him, watching him breathing steadily, sleeping so very peacefully. I clambered on his lap, straddling him, sitting myself on his thighs as he again looked up at me sleepily.
“Mmm?”
“We are going to be late”
He shuffled his hips, almost making me fall off before his arms reached around, supporting my back, my hands clutching on his shoulder for balance. He used the back of his hand to rub his eyes tiredly before again lacing his fingers behind me, staring up at me.
“I had a dream”
“Of?”
I shuffled slightly, making myself comfortable on his lap, fingers playing with the hair on his nape.
“You”
The seriousness on his face indicates that it wasn’t a good dream.
“It is just a dream, Ru-kun”
He just kept silent, his eyes searching for something in mine. His own fingers rise to the back of my head, pulling me down to meet him in a kiss, not like any other kisses that we shared, something desperate in this, something which scares me to no end. When we finally pulled apart, I find myself staring into a pair of sad brown eyes, unhidden by any colored contacts that he favored.
“What’s wrong?”
He shook his head, pulling me to him again, kissing my lips, my chin, nibbling on my neck, my collarbone, the desperation still in his moves. I wouldn’t deny him. I couldn’t deny him. But I just knew that something is not right. But for now, this is what he needs and it is what I will give him. I gasped when he pulled off my shirt, throwing it to the side, his mouth now attacking my neck, both of us having fetishes with it. I ran my fingers through his hair, massaging his scalp, enjoy the sensations he was laving on me. I could feel him growing hard beneath me as I pressed my body closer to his, kissing him hard, pulling away for a brief second to shed his tiresome shirt, nipping his lips, drawing a groan from him.
“Can I?”
I nodded at him, his fingers working on my pants, pulling it just low enough while mine freed him from his constricting pants. It was hurried from then on, him shuffling to grab at the lube in his back pocket, earning an amused look from me and a slightly abashed one from him, him preparing me minimally before quickly sheathing and slicking himself up.
“I don’t want to lose you”
I gasped out loud as he then thrust hard into me, not giving me any warning or time to adjust before setting a hard rhythm, something again unfamiliar to us but then not unwelcome, just unexpected. My fingers clenched around his nape, forcing myself to release him, knowing that it wouldn’t be comfortable for him, hands slipping to his shoulders, trying to hold myself up, barely achieving it. Our lips crushed together as I moved my hips against his, gasps leaving my lips each time he brushed against that spot, his eyes darkening as he pulled back to watch me, a feral look in his eyes. The unexpected spring shower fell on our sweaty bodies, giving us a reprise from the heat rising between us, soaking us through.
He held my back with one hand, the other reaching for me, stroking me hard, almost painfully while I battled between the need to thrust into that warm hand and the need to be filled by him. The sensations soon proved to be my downfall, I muffled my own scream as I bite down on his shoulder, and he too overcame by his own orgasm, milked out by my own tense body. I rested my head on his shoulder, absently licking the purpling bruise on his shoulder, him flinching slightly.
“We are soaked”
I laughed at his dry tone, pulling away from him, feeling him slip out from me as I leant back on my hands, face up to the dark sky, feeling the warm rain soaking me through and through. A soft noise from him, causing me to turn to him, he again with that look in his eyes.
“Ruki?”
He shook his head, leaning forward to kiss me again.
****
Funny how less than six month can change so much between us. I looked down at myself woefully; my own memories of us manage to arouse me easily. I ignored my own throbbing lower half, letting the cigarette between my fingers fall to the ground, its flame snuffed out as it hits the cement. I felt the first drops of the winter rain on my face as I lifted my face to the sky.