alizarin

So many changes.

alizarin_nyc Feb 22, 2014 22:23

Yep. Here I am. Stop staring ( Read more... )

it's always 3a.m., deep thoughts, spousal split, anxiety, depression, what to expect when you're alive

EeeeAwwwwWoooo

alizarin_nyc Jan 29, 2014 16:06

Still trying to breathe. I have to think about it, so that I can make it happen. Expand the ribcage, draw in breath, let it out ( Read more... )

maudlin me, work, anxiety, californication, what to expect when you're alive

I know I'm going through some shit, but is it normal to cry a lot, all the time? I don't know what's normal because the depression kept me from crying or feeling anything for so many years. So on one hand, I think crying = good? On the other hand, maybe the depression is coming back, therefore sadness ( Read more... )

Personal Update, ahoy!

alizarin_nyc Jan 20, 2014 20:20

I don't want too much time to pass without updating LJ because otherwise it will just go on and on and I'll feel like it's too much to update and I won't want to do it. (Okay, good, we've got that out of the way ( Read more... )

kitten confidential, maudlin me, forced posts, anxiety, cupid, depression, what to expect when you're alive

Sherlock 3.1

alizarin_nyc Jan 08, 2014 01:30

Quick reax as I watched:

( spoilers and stuff )

what to expect when you're watching tv, sherlock, john watson

Rains, pours.

alizarin_nyc Jan 06, 2014 02:15

Thank you all for your lovely responses to my previous post about separating from my husband. You have no idea how much it means to me. I will respond to each of you soon ( Read more... )

kitten confidential, cats, new jerk city, anxiety, depression, what to expect when you're alive

Sea changes.

alizarin_nyc Dec 28, 2013 23:59

This year all the holiday stuff has made me really sad. Just before I left for California to be with my family for Christmas, my husband moved out. It was an agreed-upon thing, but I wasn't expecting it to be right then. And I wasn't expecting how awful I was going to feel ( Read more... )

things we don't talk about

Epic (sorta) Book Sale

alizarin_nyc Dec 12, 2013 18:05

So I've fallen on some hard times, emotionally and financially. I'LL BE OKAY. Really. I think ( Read more... )

buy my books

This isn't helping.

alizarin_nyc Dec 08, 2013 22:47

I've just learned that yet another one of my prized shows - those rare little British gems that keep me going - has been cancelled ( Read more... )

what me fannish?, whitechapel, terrible things, what to expect when you're watching tv, ripper street, what the actual fuck

"I depended on the word 'who' to keep the beat" -Ginsburg

alizarin_nyc Dec 01, 2013 23:36

What did people think of the Doctor Who Special? Talk to me. Or link me to your thoughts ( Read more... )

cinema, co-dependent crack diva, doctor who, stage and screen, what to expect when you're alive