I haven't posted for awhile because 1) we got a used/new to us CAR! A fucking bad ass black 97 Honda Civic (pics to come soon) so now we actually have been able to have real "grown up" lives! 2) We're visiting my best friend in Cochise, but we're both homesick and physically sick (I don't know why but we both get sick when we travel, always). 3) ( Read more... )

 Today Tony and I walked down to the light-rail to take the 45 min train ride to Mesa to spend lunch with my mom and stepdad, smoke, and I bought pre-made mudslides, which turned out to be pretty good. While walking, I looked to my left at the corner of 19th ave and camelback, and witnessed three cops er, wait, pigs, arresting a severely drunk and ( Read more... )

 I've been very depressed lately and have been isolating myself, even from Tony.

My best friend called me and expressed concern, and although it really hasn't alleviated my pain, it makes me feel good that someone cares about the lowly existence of Anti. 

Those who know me know that next to the Misfits, Bad Religion is by far my favorite band. I call them "punk rock for adults," meaning that they have just the same rage and anarchic lyrics as any other band, but they are a cut above. Lyrically, they are genius. Musically, every song I've ever heard has become addictive. I'd like to share the lyrics ( Read more... )

 I was originally diagnosed with bipolar II when I was about 14 years old. This was about 10 years ago now, right around the time that medications like Zoloft were being advertised on television. Remember that little Zoloft bubble, and his plight with depression? Remember how, after seeing his doctor, he went back to bouncing around like a normal ( Read more... )

 I'm so angry that my tolerance for benzos has increased to the point that my daily PRESCRIBED meds don't come close. They are not being a good substitute for alcohol lately. I'm seriously bad with money, and I need to start to buy a few 18 packs each paycheck so I don't have to be without beer. Anyone who is drinking beer now, I envy you!!! 

I used to sew. Infact, I used to design and sew and sell my own creations during high school. I was so uber-creative. The threads I fashioned were bright, colorful, insane. I was said to be a newer younger Cyndi Lauper back then. My clothes were obviously really popular with the older raver kids...

When I moved out at 17 and got a full time job to ( Read more... )

My fucking BFF needs me to get to Tucson asap to help him with shit around his house, and to get me out of Phoenix for a bit. I am broke as shit but somehow, someway, I'm going to score the cash I need to get there- I think I may have found a job under the table that would earn me $ this weekend. I'm afraid of having to sleep away from my husband ( Read more... )

 I'm so angry about manipulating the people I hate and the people I love even worse. I don't think what I've done recently is necessarily immoral, just mentally ill in general. I like to get what I want out of favors (except for any regarding my best friend). I like to get my fucking way. I like driving in my cedes. I hate dealing with stupid ( Read more... )

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