Secret Whispers - Chapter ten [part I]

[aroruae]

Title: Secret Whispers
Authors: aroruae & fighter_of_moon

Pairings: Akame, Ryokame & others along the way

Genre: AU, angst, fluff, drama, smut

Disclaimer: If the boys were ours, you'd be seeing more of them on TV and we'd have them in RL too

Summary: For those who don't give a damn on things like destiny, let me tell you one thing. They are real. And that's what Akanishi Jin was going to find out.

A/N: Please read here

First song ~ Without notice
Second song ~ Water dance
Third song ~ Our story - Prologue
Fourth song ~ Crazy love
Fifth song ~ Affection
Sixth song ~ I.N.P.
Seventh song ~ Miracle
Eight song ~ Change Ur world
Ninth song ~ She said



Chapter ten

Tenth song ~ Sun burns down

Hey, girl, we never do the regular

Extraordinary is the move

I’ve got supernatural plans for you

So hold on tight and baby we can go.

Life is full of changes, some of them scarier than others. We gradually change as we grow up, our appearance becomes totally different as the years increase and make us feel old and our mind starts to form its own opinions, to have its own beliefs and not just what our parents say to us. All these come to us normally and we’re not scared of them because we know it’s a process that we’ll have to undergo and we’re secretly wishing for it to come faster and for us to grow up and become adults that can take decisions and not rely on others.

But then there are some changes that might scare us to death. First day of school - when we don’t know anyone and we’re afraid that we’re not going to make any friend, that we’re going to end up being on our own and without any help. First time to live alone - when we’re scared that we won’t be able to live up to our expectations, that we won’t be able to pay our bills and that we might be forced to go back from where we left. First time to give our heart to someone - when we’re unsure if it was the right thing to do and we don’t know how to fight with the fears that will come along with these new feelings; first heartbreak, first time to say I love you, first time to have sex and lose the last bit of innocence and childhood.

It’s up to us if we let these fears take the best out of us.

The drive felt short and long in the same time and by the time Jin was parking his car on Kazuya’s alley, they were both nervous but excited to do this. After all, it was the first time they would present themselves as lovers because Pi and Ryo knew from Jin and hadn’t really had the chance to see them together - well, even if Ryo had caught bits of them. Jin was feeling like he had gone back in time when he had had his first audition and had been scared to death that he’ll fail and not be able to accomplish his dream - even if he had still failed in the end. And Kazuya… Kazuya still couldn’t believe that he was going to do this.

But what the hell? The younger said to himself as he raised his hand and knocked on the door, giving Yuuya the chance to answer it and… have more time to get used with the picture of seeing them together. And they didn’t even have to wait long because Yuuya immediately opened the door with a broad grin and an excited aura surrounding him. “Oh, hello, Jin! My brother told me we’d have guests, though I didn’t expect to be you.” He said friendly as he opened the door and let them inside. “I wouldn’t have worked myself so hard to clean all the place.” He then laughed, making his brother groan.

“Sorry for the small place.” Kazuya mumbled with his cheeks a bit red, as he ushered Yuuya inside their living and invited Jin too in the same time.

“Don’t worry.” Jin smiled reassuringly although it was a little obvious that he was feeling kind of uncomfortable being in such a small place. Thought it wasn’t his fault and Jin tried to suppress that grimace that threatened to appear on his face and replaced it with a gentle smile as he entered the living room, his eyes still observing his surrounding and taking in every detail of the house. It wasn’t that bad, he had to admit, and it looked very different from the outside that was cold and dirty while the house gave a familiar sensation and a relaxing one. Jin had been expecting worse after the shock he had had that night when he first saw where Kazuya lived, but… it was kind of cozy in here.

Yuuya signaled Jin to take a place on the extensible couch, grinning at him like a silly child. “Kazuya rarely brings someone over.” He whispered to the actor, though Kazuya heard him and this way he got himself a whack over the head. “Hey! What was that for?” Yuuya glared at his older brother, looking like a kicked puppy.

“For babbling too much.” The assistant shrugged and disappeared into the kitchen to bring some snacks.

“So.” Yuuya turned to Jin with glowing eyes. “How come you’re here tonight? Didn’t you plan to kidnap Kazuya again?” he asked, looking genuinely excited by this idea as he had been the night Jin had taken the younger away by force. “Oh, and in case you’re wondering - this is where I sleep and that door over there -” Yuuya pointed to a door behind him. “- leads to Kazuya’s bedroom.” He completed with a wicked grin, though his luck wasn’t on his side as the assistant overheard him as he came back into the room, glaring at his younger brother.

“Yuuya, I’ll have you grounded again.” He threatened menacingly as he put the tray filled with some snacks on the table in front of Jin and Yuuya.

“What?” he said defensively. “Jin was peeking around and I saved him the time!” he pouted innocently at Kazuya. The assistant rolled his eyes - had his brother always been this talkative?

Jin chose to not say anything for the moment as he had indeed been peeking around the house and wondering which one was Kazuya’s room. He cleared his throat to try to hide his intentions though he was afraid that he had been already found out - he had never been good at acting with his loved ones anyway. “Yuuya was just giving me the tour of the house.” Jin smiled innocently from the couch where he had sat on, like he hadn’t had dirty thoughts just a few moments ago. “Really, Kazuya, loosen up a bit.” He then proceeded to scold the younger, like he and Yuuya had been right and Kazuya was the only one guilty here.

Kazuya directed his glare at Jin. “Spoil him and I’ll have you skinned.” He threatened the actor, though he immediately sighed as he saw Yuuya looking adoringly at Jin. It was going to be tough when his twenty years old brother was acting like one of five.

Jin winked at the youngest, silently promising him that he’ll remain his ally no matter what happened and even more if Kazuya was against it. “Come on, a little bit of fun never hurt no one.” He said with a scolding tone as he sat up and approached the older brother, massaging his shoulders as he led him to the couch, making him sit and then joining him, smiling the whole time like the little devil that he was.

Yuuya’s smile broadened as he saw his brother give into Jin’s will and his eyes saw beyond their unspoken words. So he leaned back and looked amused at the pair. “Are you two going out?” he asked angel like, though the gleam in his eyes showed the contrary.

Instantly, Kazuya stiffened and his face flushed bright red giving the answer to Yuuya, but the boy was a tease as his older brother, so he wanted to hear the words. “So?” he pressed on, looking pleased. Kazuya glanced at Jin.

“Me?!” the older shrieked as he hadn’t thought that he would be the one to say it - as much as he loved to say that he was Kazuya’s lover - but Kazuya because… well, because Yuuya was Kazuya’s brother and not his.

Kazuya rolled his eyes, slightly annoyed at Jin. He turned to look at Yuuya and saw that he was greatly amused by this whole situation. He took a deep breath and answered - “Yes, we are.” But it wasn’t his voice alone that said that and made Yuuya roar with laugh as Jin said the exactly same words in the same time, making the two lovers look at each other, slightly embarrassed of their unexpected synchronization.

“You two are funny!” Yuuya laughed and rose up to stare at the pair. “And really, Kazu, why were you fretting so much over it?” he raised an eyebrow, looking totally exasperated. And then he did one thing no one had seen coming - he leaned forward and kissed Jin fully on the mouth. “You know I fancy guys too.” He grinned happily, laughing inwardly at their shocked expressions.

Okay, let’s rewind a little. Did Yuuya just kiss me?! Jin asked himself as he continued to stare at the youngest, the disbelief clearly written on his face. His mouth fell open and his eyes bolted out of their orbits, not wanting to believe that his lover’s brother had just kissed him!! “Okaaaaaay…” was the only thing he said with an uncertain and slight trembling voice as he finally came back to reality and… well, ducked behind Kazuya as much as he could to hide himself from the crazy man.

Not that Kazuya was less shocked than Jin, but at least he recovered quickly and death glared at his brother who smiled cheekily in return. “I know that, you needn’t to show it to me.” The assistant said grimly, his lips pursed in a thin line. He elbowed Jin, also annoyed at his lover for suddenly being like this. He wasn’t pleased with the older cowering behind him like Yuuya had done God-knows-what. Well, he did, but still… no need for overreaction.

Yuuya smiled at his brother’s brooding expression and then he simply leaned forward and kissed Kazuya too, leaving him speechless. “There, now I showed it to Jin too.” He said proudly before bursting into laughter. “God, you’re so easy to tease.” He continued to laugh as he plopped himself on the floor, looking at them amused.

“Don’t kiss my boyfriend!” Jin suddenly yelped, standing up and pointing with his finger at Yuuya, his eyes threatening and looking dangerous and seeming more like a puppy kicked in its ass.

Kazuya rolled his eyes and pulled Jin by the hand, to make him sit down. “He’s a brat, don’t give into his teasing.” He said with a sigh, making Yuuya snicker some more.

“You have some guts to call him your boyfriend.” Yuuya said as he leaned backwards, narrowing his eyes at Jin, maliciousness written in them. “Did you even sleep with him?” he asked, arching an eyebrow, looking very much like Kazuya when he wanted to be ironic.

“Yuuya!” His brother raised his voice, all blushing and flustered.

“You haven’t.” the boy concluded and laughed some more. “You still have a long way to make him your boyfriend.” He stuck out his tongue at Jin, making Kazuya sink in the couch more, still wondering where did he go wrong in raising Yuuya.

“Like that it’s my fault.” Jin muttered under his breath, only for him to hear and know. He then looked up at Yuuya and cocked an arrogant eyebrow at the boy. “So now only if you fuck someone you can say that you’re that person’s lover?” he asked with a mocking voice, intentionally using a more brutal way of talking seeing that Yuuya had no problem with asking questions like this.

“No, but it does make you feel more of a boyfriend.” Yuuya replied, pleased to see that he kind of annoyed Jin. After all, not everyone could turn into Kazuya’s boyfriend if at least Yuuya hadn’t approved him. And although they have met and discussed about this, the boy didn’t expect to see his brother accept Jin. Not after how many times he had seen Kazuya so broken hearted over women.

“Yuuya, you’re being rude.” Kazuya finally spoke and threw a hard look at his younger brother who simply shrugged. “What I do with Jin doesn’t concern you.” He added and almost regretted saying this, seeing the flash of hurt on Yuuya’s face. Yes, he knew what it meant - they have always shared everything.

But then Yuuya smiled and looked at Jin. “How long have you been together?” he asked, looking curious and purposely ignoring his older brother.

“Um, two weeks.” Jin replied a little unsure, realizing that he didn’t know much about the relationship between the two brothers and he had no idea if this kind of behavior was normal or if he should be worried that he had managed to mess up things between them.

Yuuya seemed pensive for a few moments. “So... you’ve finally persuaded him?” he chuckled a little, not showing anything like he might feel bothered about the fact that Kazuya had hidden this for the time being, not really trusting him to tell such an important thing. After all, you don’t turn gay every day, right? And Kazuya had been straight as far as Yuuya had known.

“In some aspects, yes,” Jin answered with a smile, “though he still doesn’t believe me when I tell him that I love him.” He quickly proceeded to whine as he slipped from the couch and flopped down on the floor, not feeling comfortable to look at Yuuya from above. “Can you believe this?” he then asked with a deep and fake sigh.

Yuuya laughed and easily adapted to Jin’s atmosphere. Yes, he had time to yell later at his brother. “He has always been a non-believer.” Yuuya sighed too and glanced at Kazuya with a dejected look on his face. “Just tell him everyday, he’ll give in finally.” He patted Jin in comfort, though he appeared kind of gleefully about all this.

Kazuya looked at them incredulously. “Yeah, do that and you might see the door earlier than expected.” The assistant replied and crossed his arms, totally disapproving of their talk. “And since when did you know about him persuading me?” he then asked Yuuya who quickly turned at Jin, puppy eyed like. “Jin?” Kazuya asked and his tone was of no good sign.

“Weeeeeell…” Jin trailed on his words, looking at his lover with an innocent expression. “Since the beginning, I think?” he answered and grinned widely to show how angel-like he really was.

“I can’t believe this.” Kazuya sighed and let his head fall into his hands. “So, up till now, you’ve been seeing each other and talking about me behind my back?” he looked at them accusingly. Yuuya quickly shook his head. “Then?” he asked inquiringly.

“Jin needed some advice and I gave him some.” Yuuya shrugged like it was nothing.

“Advice related to me?” Kazuya asked and looked at Jin this time.

“Yeah?” the actor answered with an uncertain voice as he looked at his lover, his lower lip trembling a little as he bit hard on it. “I didn’t know what to do and I didn’t know where to go, so I… ended up talking with the person who knows you best.” He confessed with a guilty expression, not knowing if Kazuya was going to get mad at him or Yuuya for hiding this. But… it wasn’t like he could come and say ‘hey, your brother has been giving me tips about you and that’s how I knew your favorite flower is lily of the valley if you wanted to know’. “I didn’t think you’d get mad…” Jin said with a small voice as he looked now at the floor, obviously embarrassed.

Kazuya sighed again. “I’m not mad, but I would have liked if any of you two have told me something.” He reproached and Yuuya quickly bristled.

“And did you tell anyone about you and Jin dating?” the boy looked accusingly at his older brother, showing clearly that he was bothered. “You told me once - you reap what you sow.” Yuuya said and pouted a little.

And that’s when Kazuya left the couch and went to his brother to hug him. “I’m sorry, but I -” he said on a low voice but Yuuya pushed Kazuya away.

“It doesn’t matter.” He said on a raw voice and looked at Jin with a sloppy smile. “Sorry for this, but Kazuya’s never hidden anything from me.” Yuuya shrugged and you could see that Kazuya was bothered by the nonchalant tone his younger brother was using. “But!” and both men were startled by the sudden harshness in the boy’s voice. “If you hurt Kazuya, you’ll deal with both Kamenashi.” He warned Jin with a curt nod.

“I would never dare to do this.” Jin smiled as he stretched his hand towards the boy to shake it, as a sign of peace and a sealing of their promise. Well, not on purpose, he completed the sentence in his mind, not feeling brave enough to confess that he had managed to make Kazuya cry once. It didn’t matter because this wasn’t going to happen a second time.

Kazuya made a face at Jin’s answer, though he felt warm and fuzzy on the inside seeing his brother and Jin getting along like this. He had known that Yuuya won’t have any problems against this relationship, but he had dreaded the moment when Yuuya will know about the time that had passed with him not telling about this. But Kazuya wasn’t aware yet of the level of perverseness in his brother’s mind.

“So, you’re going to sleep tonight here?” Yuuya asked and his eyes brightened at the idea.

“I would love too!” Jin hurried to answer with a wide grin plastered on his face, mostly because it will drive Kazuya crazy.

“No!” Kazuya interfered and you could see that he was all blushed just at the idea. “Jin has work tomorrow and so do I.” he said as if this solved everything. Not for Yuuya though.

“Oh come on~” the youngest complained and pouted at his brother. “I assure you that tomorrow you’ll be as fresh as till now!” he made a brief pause before adding. “No, fresher!” and he grinned stupidly. “Right, Jin?” he turned to the actor, winking at him, accomplice like.

“I can totally assure you that too!” Jin supported Yuuya, standing next to him and looking from below at his lover, all puppy-like and seeming innocent, even if his eyes were sparkling with something devilish in them. “Besides, you still need to come to my apartment and wake me up, this will save you a trip.” He added with a knowing voice, like this was the only solution in the world for their problem.

Kazuya glared at Jin, then at Yuuya. “No way.” He said stubbornly, knowing very well what will happen if such a thing were to happen.

“Then, I can sleep with you and Jin will sleep here.” Yuuya suddenly proposed and hit Jin to make him agree, because he had a plan. But Kazuya wasn’t as dumb as his brother seemed to think and he knew that the youngest was planning something.

“No.” he said stubbornly.

“Pretty please?” Jin insisted as he looked yet again with puppy eyes at Kazuya, trying to convince him and ready to accept anything as long as he was allowed to stay there with his lover. “You know as well as I do that it would be more convenient this way and you’ll be able to sleep until late if you don’t have to come to the other side of the city to wake me up. Besides, you need those hours to be more prepared for working with Ryo, right?” Jin said without stopping, afraid that he’ll forget some of his arguments if he gave Kazuya the chance to speak.

Jin did have a point on the last argument, but Kazuya was still suspicious. “I’ll be okay even if I have to come to you.” He said stubbornly.

“Come on, Kazuuuu~” Yuuya began to whine and looked puppy eyed at his brother. “Besides, you owe me one, remember?” he then changed his expression with an accusing one. “You didn’t tell me about Jin, so I want him to sleep here tonight in exchange.” Yuuya pressed and Kazuya knew better that his brother would act like a spoilt brat the following days if he won’t comply with it.

“You really know how to make one feel guilt, don’t you?” Kazuya glared at his younger brother who smiled angelically.

“I learnt from the best.” Yuuya replied and stood up happily. “So we’re settled! I’m going to look for some clothes for Jin, I think mine will fit him better.” He said and quickly hopped to a drawer behind them. Kazuya sighed defeated at last while Jin got closer to the boy, their thighs touching. The older smiled reassuringly and searched for his lover’s hand, entwining them and squishing it a little.

“Are you mad?” he asked with a low voice, taking care to be heard only by Kazuya. It had been kind of a game since the beginning to see if he really could convince his lover to let him do that, but he didn’t want to cause problems or to upset him.

Kazuya looked at him and shook his head in denial. “Not quite.” He replied with a sigh. “But don’t try anything funny during the night or I’ll throw your sad ass outside.” He then glared at Jin, really looking like he’ll do this. Also, this was for Yuuya too who happily returned and plopped some clothes on the couch.

“I hope they’ll fit.” The boy said with a cheery tone.

“Thanks.” Jin replied with a smile as he sat up and pulled Kazuya after him, their hands still joined together. “This doesn’t mean though that I want you to leave already.” The actor added with a pout as he turned to look at his lover.

And Yuuya had another great idea. “Right, Kazuya! Why don’t you show Jin your bedroom? Meanwhile I’ll make the bed here.” He said and started to push the two of them and with the help of Jin, Yuuya ushered them inside his brother’s bedroom, closing the door shut. “Damn… too bad I don’t have a key.” He said out loud, knowing that those too will hear him.

Jin laughed out loud. “I surely like your brother.” He said with an amused tone as he looked at the older brother of the two of them, his eyes sparkling in the dark room with something that resembled excitement and also nervousness.

Kazuya gulped and gave a nervous laugh. “He’ll kill me one day.” He said and went to turn on the light.

“Nervous?” Jin asked with a chuckle as he caught the boy’s hand and pulled him back into his arms, hugging Kazuya at his chest and not giving him a chance to run away - and to turn on the lights, seeing as Kazuya hadn’t had time to do it before getting caught by Jin.

There were shivers down his spine as Jin hugged him and Kazuya couldn’t help but to let out a soft cry. “N-no.” he stuttered, showing the contrary. “I have to show you the room.” He then added on a steadier voice, biting his lower lip.

“Okay.” Jin chuckled again, this time purposely choosing Kazuya’s ear to breathe out the words. “Let’s start with the bed, shall we?” he proposed and with a swift move, the two of them landed on the bed, Kazuya still in Jin’s arms and the older one’s back facing the wall with the younger in his lap.

“Jin…” Kazuya whispered the other’s name, feeling his heart thumping loudly. “You know I didn’t mean that.” He said softly, moving a little, wanting to get away from Jin’s embrace. Really… they can’t stay here, on the dark, like that and with all those thoughts running through their heads - and not only there.

“I’m not going to do anything.” Jin confessed, feeling Kazuya how he was already wanting to run and hide from him. “I just missed being with you like this.” He said with a longing tone, hugging his lover with more strength and shifting on the bed to find a comfortable position, sighing happily when he found it.

“Really?” Kazuya asked and relaxed a bit. “Why did you want to sleep here tonight?” he then asked, settling a little more comfortable into Jin’s arms.

“Don’t know, it seemed funny to see you like this and to tease you more.” Jin confessed with a laugh.

Kazuya pouted and pinched Jin, gaining a yelp from the older one. “And if I tease you right now?” he asked with a malicious voice which foretold nothing good. Neither the hand that was skimming along Jin’s arm.

“Then I won’t hold back either.” The actor replied with a shrug and a nonchalant tone, like he had prepared this answer before Kazuya’s question.

“Oh, really?” Kazuya chuckled low and his hand suddenly touched the older one’s collarbones. The reaction was instantaneous. Jin screamed like a girl and immediately let go of Kazuya, pushing him to protect his collarbones, tears starting to form in his eyes.

It took him a few moments to calm down and then he looked at his lover with accusing eyes and a devilish smile. “I think you have no idea what you’ve just done.” He threatened and before the younger could move, Jin pulled on his hand a little harshly, making Kazuya fall on the bed and Jin immediately topping him. He didn’t let even an inch separate them and settled between Kazuya’s legs, taking care to also catch his arms, holding them on each side of his body. “Comfortable?” the actor asked with a smirk as he looked into Kazuya’s eyes, but that didn’t last long as he lifted his head a little and blew hot air into the boy’s ear.

Shivers went down his spine and he couldn’t do anything, weakness creeping in his body. “You really don’t want to do this…” Kazuya breathed and tried to release his hands, but Jin was holding him too tight. “Don’t forget, Saturday is two days away.” He said, the breath hitching in his chest.

“Yeah, but I warned you first.” Jin simply shrugged and then chuckled low, not moving an inch from Kazuya’s ear. He didn’t intend on doing more than this, but… it was a nice change to see Kazuya the horny one, right? “And now you have to pay.” He continued and bit hard on the younger’s ear, licking it after and soothing it with his tongue.

Kazuya whimpered and arched under Jin. “I’ll make you pay too later, you know that, no?” he said on a husky voice, his body trembling from what Jin was doing to his most sensitive spot.

“We still have Saturday.” Jin reminded the boy his own words from earlier. “You can make me pay,” he continued, his teeth gently grabbing the younger’s ear lob, “however you want.” He chuckled again and pulled with his teeth slowly and teasingly, using his tongue to suck a little. “I would love to see your ideas.” The actor added, now his tongue circling Kazuya’s ear from top… to bottom.

“God, Jin, I’ll kill you later.” He moaned, trying hard to fight the arousal in his body. “Stop right now, really.” He then begged, his voice almost to the point of breaking. Really it was too much for Kazuya sometimes, especially when the thought of Yuuya standing in the other room, Jin on top of him and doing such naughty things turned him on more than he had expected.

“Or you’ll do what?” Jin chuckled yet again, fully enjoying Kazuya’s reactions. He moved his hands and managed to trap both of Kazuya’s hands into one of his, holding them above the younger’s head. He used his other hand to brush his fingers over the other ear of Kazuya’s, painfully slowly, like he wasn’t really touching it but letting his lover feel the sensation there in the same time, just like the wind. “Because I kind of enjoy having you like this.” He whispered in the silence of the room, letting his hand go down and now touch Kazuya’s lips, circling them with his index finger and then raising his head to suck on it, his eyes boring into Kazuya’s while his tongue was licking on his own finger.

Kazuya gulped as he watched his lover’s tongue slowly curling over his finger, taking it in his mouth, teasingly repeating the process in front of his eyes. The younger bit on his lip and his eyes darted to Jin’s and then back to his plump lips and naughty tongue. And he only needed a moment to do what he had planned, one moment when he felt Jin giving more passion to his finger fellatio. He yanked his hands free from Jin’s grip, grabbing onto Jin and pushing him down, now reversing their positions. Of course, the first thing he had grabbed had been the hand on which Jin had been sucking its finger. He held tightly on Jin’s hands as he straddled the older and looked down at him, panting a little.

“And I certainly enjoy having you like this too.” He breathed as he leaned forward and sucked a little onto the finger Jin had been doing the same. He bit it teasingly before passing his mouth over it, encircling it a few times.

“You like being on top?” Jin breathed the words, already having problems with expressing himself and cursing in his mind that things had gotten to this point yet again. This just meant one thing - he would be left with a throbbing arousal again. But damn if he cared! “You like seeing me yearning for you?” he continued to tease, moving his hips a little and grinding them into Kazuya’s body. “Moaning for you?” he talked dirty, moaning loud and on purpose as he closed his eyes for a moment and then opened them again, still fixed on his finger and Kazuya’s tongue.

And Kazuya couldn’t find other way than to stop Jin’s dirty words and moans but by crushing his mouth against his lover’s, freeing his hands and letting his body’s desires take control. It was a sloppy and passionate kiss, tongues brushing against each others, fighting to dominate and to take more than it was being offered. Their bodies were glued to each other, hips grinding and friction created between the two of them. Kazuya parted a bit from the kiss, breathing heavily as he opened his eyes to look at Jin through a haze of desire.

“I think I want you, Jin…” he whispered, his hand searching for Jin’s, lacing their fingers together. “A bit too much…” he added close to the older one’s lips.

“Well, that’s okay because I feel the same way.” Jin replied, panting and trying to recover his breath but failing badly when his eyes fell back on the younger and the way he was writhing above him and seemed to want him so much that his crotch became a pain to have and a bliss to take care of. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his expression seeming to change a little. When he opened his eyes again, the plea was written in them and a desperation that he had never felt until then. “I can’t believe this!” he suddenly complained, whining loudly and acting like a child.

He sighed. “You’re going to leave again aroused and unsatisfied.” Jin answered to the unspoken question of Kazuya’s, looking into the younger’s eyes and still hoping that… there might be a chance to change this.

Kazuya looked at Jin and smiled softly. He pecked the actor’s lips, his eyes never leaving Jin’s. “I know…” he said, lingering on the words as his hand trailed on Jin’s left side and slowly got to his waist, lifting the shirt and touching the burning skin. “But like you said… I want you to yearn for me, to moan over me…” he continued and his hand moved now above the bulge that was obviously painfully waiting for attention. “I want you to be smitten mad with me.” Kazuya breathed over Jin’s lips as he pulled down the zipper of the actor’s jeans and slid his fingers inside, feeling Jin’s hard and throbbing length. It was a new sensation for him and it sent his heart jumping off the track, his mind telling him constantly that this was wrong, that this wasn’t how it should be. But who listened to it when all Kazuya could see, smell, taste, hear and feel was Jin? No one could blame him for wanting more of the man that was slowly driving him over the edge.

“Kazuya…” Jin’s moan echoed inside the room like a melting whisper. He closed his eyes and bit his lips hard, blood appearing and making him trash even more under Kazuya’s taunting and maddening touch. He had never felt like this and Jin wasn’t a man that could say that he hadn’t had sex his entire life, but on the contrary. He knew very well the feeling of a hand along his crotch, but he still believed that he had never felt something so breathtaking, something that made him completely lose his mind like Kazuya’s shy and uncertain touches on his cock. Instinctively, he bucked his hips into Kazuya’s hand, wanting more and desiring for more friction, for more touching and more moving.

“More…” the actor asked, finally feeling able to open his eyes and look at Kazuya with a pleading and wanting gaze, the desire written in it and the need, the crave for having and just owning the boy taking his mind and making him a puppet in Kazuya’s hands. “Please…” he begged, half aware of the fact that once the younger will be aware of what was happening, he will back out, but not caring anymore and not being able to think at anything past his release.

Kazuya gulped seeing Jin like that just because of his actions; it was an entirely different sensation having a man begging for his touch, writhing under him and lusting for more. Entranced by the sight Jin offered, Kazuya’s fingers slipped under the older one’s underwear and curled around the pulsing member, the open flyer scratching his wrist a bit. His heart stilled and his body reacted to Jin’s desire, feeling how all the blood rushed to his loins, clouding his mind. His hand began to slowly feel Jin’s cock, all shy but daring in the same time. It got to the head and felt something warm sliding down his finger and the shaft.

“God, Jin.” He muttered as his hand stilled its movements, the younger wondering how did it got to this. But there was something inside of him that made him continue. He moved his other hand to pull down a little Jin’s jeans and his boxers, just enough to give him space to move freely. “I can only offer you this…” he breathed over Jin’s lips as his hand fastened his pace on Jin’s hardened member, doing for the first time a hand job to another man than himself.

Guess Saturday came earlier.

“Oh, God…” Jin tried to control himself but felt like going mad when he heard the low voice of Kazuya and he had to make an effort to remind himself that Yuuya was close and he could hear them and barge in any moment. He tried desperately to keep his eyes open and to ignore the fact that he was feeling like his heart was going to burst out of his chest any moment now, moving a little and lifting his hand to cup Kazuya’s cheek. He whispered his name and when their eyes met, Jin brought him down for a kiss, sucking slowly on his lips as he continued to grind into Kazuya’s hand, yearning and searching for his release. “Kazuya…” Jin called his name again, keeping the boy close to his lips and teasing them, sucking and licking them continuously. He slowly let his hand fall down on the younger’s body, his fingers brushing over his neck, chest and going even lower until it found the bulge from Kazuya’s pants, squishing it a little.

At this sudden action, Kazuya’s hand squeezed around Jin’s cock, closing his eyes in the eve of a new feeling sweeping over him. He whimpered in Jin’s never ceasing kiss and his fingers ran across the length, passing over the head and pressing slowly over its slit, gaining a short intake of air from Jin. “Just let me this time…” he whispered to Jin, feeling that if the older would touch him, he’ll lose in favor of lust and yearning when he wanted to feel Jin, to see more of him, to see him driven over the edge just because of his touches. “Just let only me touch you.” He demanded, lifting his body a little, to make Jin’s hand retreat as his own continued to move along Jin’s member when to fast, exhilarating paces, when to slow, teasing ones.

And Jin surrendered to Kazuya’s will, letting himself be engulfed by the new sensation of having the younger touching him like this, feeling trapped by those small fingers that teased and moved along his length shy and daringly in the same time. He could only cuss in his mind, being slowly driven by Kazuya to the climax, losing focus and swaying into the blurry world of the upcoming climax. He crushed his mouth against Kazuya’s, making him swallow his moans as he thrust into the younger’s hand, yearning for release more than ever.

Knock, knock.

And the reverie broke in Kazuya’s mind as his younger brother’s voice drifted to his half deafened by the lust and passion ears.

“Kazuya, the landlord’s here.” Yuuya said and Kazuya sat up, his wet hand removed from Jin’s member, action to which Jin protested with a half groan, half moan. Kazuya’s other hand clasped over the older one’s mouth as he cleared his throat.

“I’ll be right there, Yuuya.” he said out loud, hoping that his voice sounded normal and not throaty and husky as it would be after and during such tensioned moments.

“Okay.” Yuuya answered and they could hear his footsteps moving away, some voices in the background joining the sound.

“Oh, fuck.” Kazuya cursed and pulled himself away from Jin, avoiding looking at the actor. “Sorry, Jin… can you take care of -” the younger made a pause, not knowing how to express whatever had been happening between them. “- in the bathroom?” he completed and climbed off the bed, his body all aroused and tensed. Fuck, what had he been thinking, for God’s sake?! There was Yuuya in the house, he shouldn’t have gone and do that to Jin!! He knew why he shouldn’t let the actor sleep there - because such things were prone to happen and after this, Kazuya wasn’t sure anymore, no, he didn’t trust his reason to stop him anymore. Because now he realized that he wanted Jin as much as the older wanted him.

There was no turning back.

Jin just sighed in defeat. Well, it wasn’t like he hadn’t expected this to happen but it was still frustrating to think that he’d have to take care of his arousal once again - alone. He didn’t say anything and sat up, arranging his clothes and zipping his jeans, trying to hide the bulge from them but obviously not succeeding. He sighed again. “Give me five minutes and then I’ll come too.” He finally said after what seemed like an eternity of silence, wanting to calm down a little first and subtly trying to get rid of Kazuya also. After all, his arousal wasn’t going to disappear with the object of his fantasy there, right? He just didn’t think that Kazuya might also take it the wrong way too, though it seemed to not be a problem as the other one seemed too focused on anything else than his lover.

“Five?” Kazuya whispered, thinking that he didn’t need that much of time to jerk off. But it didn’t matter anymore as he adjusted his clothes too, glad that his shirt was a bit longer, enough to hide his own erection. “Fine, I’ll be outside.” He said with a briskly tone and strolled over to the door, not sparing Jin one glance. Funny, they haven’t even turned on the light, the moon rays being the only thing that was brighter than the darkness in the room. Maybe if the light had been on, Kazuya wouldn’t have gone that far and would have stopped at a decent point, where he won’t have almost manhandled Jin and have him come in his hand. The younger sighed as he stepped out of the room, surprised to see Yuuya alone.

“Where’s the landlord?” he asked, confused.

Yuuya took in his appearance and smiled to himself. “Just left.” His brother shrugged as he lounged on the stretched couch, watching Kazuya curiously. “You were taking too long. Had fun in there?” he then asked, his expression a bit lewd.

“Shut up.” Kazuya growled and slipped next to Yuuya, looking a bit exhausted. “I think I messed up again. I forgot about you and everything else around me!” he said with a surprised tone. “I don’t know what’s happening to me…”

Yuuya smiled and threw a hand over Kazuya’s shoulder. “Are you falling in love, Kazu?” he asked and chuckled at the shocked expression his brother showed to him. “It’s okay to fall in love, don’t be that afraid. And I know it’s different this time, Jin’s a man and… being with a man is not that easy. Especially a star one. But accept things as they come, you’ll adapt to everything sooner than you think.” Yuuya continued, squeezing a little his brother’s shoulder. “Especially if feelings are involved.” He then winked and grinned happily. “But don’t forget about me next time~” he quickly changed his expression to a pout, making Kazuya laugh.

“Thanks.” He muttered with a slight blush.

Their conversation was suddenly interrupted by the appearance of Jin who looked a little helplessly at Kazuya before the younger realized that he was waiting for him to show where the bathroom was. He quickly got up and pointed to Jin the door, watching it close in front of him.

Really now, Jin thought as he found himself alone once again, this was too much! And it wasn’t even his fault, Kazuya had been the one to start all of this even if Jin had warned him again and again that he won’t stop the next time and won’t care about their surroundings or anything that could stop them from… knowing each other better. He sighed. Why was it that hard? The actor asked himself but of course there was no one to answer him as he looked around the room and found only his reflection in the mirror. Somehow, after the mood had been destroyed and Kazuya had left the room, Jin hadn’t really felt like he needed a release too and he was now just staring at the walls and wondering what he should do. He understood, he really did and even more considering that he had been trying to tell Kazuya that he won’t do anything and that he just wanted to spend some time alone with his lover. It wasn’t that hard, right? Especially after he had started to see Kazuya less and less after he had started working for Ryo too. Even in the mornings when Kazuya would come to wake him up, the younger was still reading something or writing another.

It was frustrating actually.

And now… “Oh, God.” Jin groaned, not wanting to believe that he had been seducing Kazuya when his brother was just on the other side of the room. It wasn’t like he had never done this, but… Kazuya was different. Jin wanted him to be different because the boy had something that the others didn’t have and that always managed to drive Jin crazy and over the top.

He had fallen deep in love and that was why he needed to respect Kazuya. He went to the sink and splashed some water on his face, groaning happily at the feel of the cold water on his skin, waking him up completely. He turned off the faucet and arranged his clothes once more, his arousal total forgotten and under control. He took a deep breath and opened the door, trying to act normal and smiling like nothing happened.

“Listen, I just received a phone call and I have to go.” Jin said with regret in his voice as he stopped in front of the two boys, feeling grateful that for once, he could control his acting in front of someone important for him.

Kazuya looked surprised at Jin and you could see that he wasn’t totally buying what Jin said. But he decided to go along, seeing how their moment in the bedroom was ruined now. “I see.” He said softly and got up, but Yuuya suddenly began to wail.

“No way! How can you just leave?” he said to Jin pouting and looking upset. “Can’t it wait?” Yuuya asked with a puppy eyed expression.

“Sorry, kiddo, but I have to go.” Jin smiled yet again and ruffled the boy’s hair, happy that at least one of the Kamenashi tried to stop him. “Next time.” He promised with a wink and turned to leave.

Yuuya pouted some more but as he saw his brother standing and doing nothing, he nudged him, making him get out from the trance he had entered in. “Go with him.” He hissed to Kazuya who looked puzzled as his brother before he caught on and stopped Jin.

“Jin.” He called and went up to the older. “I’ll go with you downstairs.” Kazuya said and glanced at his brother who showed him the thumb up. Soon both of them exited the building and walked in silence outside, the cold silence of the night being the only sound between the two of them. It was kind of awkward all of this, especially after what happened between them in his bedroom. Oh, god, his bedroom was now filled with Jin’s scent and the memories of their touching. Kazuya shook his head, trying to get rid of the sudden thoughts that crept inside of his mind. He looked at Jin and for a moment the actor seemed lonely in his eyes.

“Jin…” he said the other’s name with a soft calling.

PART II