So...Steve and I are coming up on our 3 year anniversary...the 21st, coincidentally, the day the world is supposed to end.Its not always been a bed of roses, rainbows and unicorns...but so far all things considered we have done amazingly well. No fights, no shouting, no name calling, no slammed doors...just occasional disagreements and some life ( Read more... )

I havent had a computer in ages. I have blabbed to facebook or written down imnportant thoughts on bits of paper...the envelopes of unopened bills or quietly whispered them to the cieling in the dark. and I am surprised what a foreign instrument the computer seems. Im used to the tiny touch screen phone where in three lines I can rant and rave and ( Read more... )

The female body is an infinite tragedy ( Read more... )

A hundred times I have wanted to sit down and writeand a hundred times I have been thwarted by the chaos of living life. Ha! Just now I wrote that line and got called because all 3 kids are sick and scrumpy woke up crying. Par for the course as the golf fucks say. Anyway...right now is a time of decline and fallow. Seems like the second the ( Read more... )

The world is a strange small place. I managed to make contact with somebody who knew my brother. It was on an FB forum about the horrible town I grew up in. they had started an RIP thread and somebody remembered him. What a shock. That in other places wandering around on the surface of the earth are other people with memories of a brother that I ( Read more... )

I really have nothing to complain about. life is its normal pace of shit interrupted by occasional rosebuds. my only complaint is me. and thats fucking pathetic and it just becomes a negative feedback loop wherein I hate myself a little more each day just for being me. And I dont really know why, all of a sudden, when life isnt that bad, I should ( Read more... )

Well work mondat wasnt the total disaster I was predicting. 7 hours straight, on my feet, no breaks. Didnt get home till 3am. But I made $200, and nobody yelled at me. I still dont think I am cut out for this waitressing gig, especially in the dramatic madhouse looneybin that is Cachagua...but I havent been fired yet and my boss actually took my ( Read more... )

I have an idol. Klause ferdinand hempfling. Hes this amazing german guy that lives in spain. Horseman extrordinare, poet, musician, philosopher. I have his book, dancing with horses, and ive been sitting on youtube this week watching his videos. First become a child. Sounds wise if you can conjure up the archetype of childhood, not so wise if you ( Read more... )

Seems like the whole world comes crashing down at once. I dont even know where to start it would be easiest but least expressive to just make a long list of everything wrong in my world and all its orbiting satelites. But I cannot even bring myself to do that. Some things are so vauge, some things arent even to do with me at all but rather im ( Read more... )

Wow first time I have sat down to write in a while. I made the mistake of reading a bunch of REALLY GOOD poems I once wrote. I mean- who was that woman that had such a gift for using language to describe the indescribable? Its probably been at least a year since I wrote a poem. I think its because I am essentially happy. I dont have a need to ( Read more... )