I've been pretty occupied lately. I finally found one of my friends that I've looked everywhere for. I found her on MySpace. I don't know why it didn't dawn on me to look there first, because EVERYONE is on there. I see why though...it's very addictive. My name on there is ~Haircolor Junkie~. I've been talking to everyone from my past and it' ( Read more... )

I talked to Stephen about what was bothering me. I read one of his journal entries about me and it just wasn't so nice. I'm used to reading not so nice stuff about me in his journal, but it seemed like he was about out the door. It made me think that maybe I am some horrible person. He didn't entirely convince me that I'm not a bad person, but ( Read more... )

I'm finding that sometimes it's just better to know what you're told. I don't understand how someone can be at their wit's end and not willing to say "help me, I'm losing hope here. This is what I feel I'm lacking, this is what I feel I need..." How can you know how bad something is unless you're told? How can you help someone unless you know ( Read more... )

Happy New Year!!! Oh boy, and what a fine start...How about I try to be a better person this time around. Someone that doesn't disgust me for a change...

The wedding is coming up and there's so much on my mind. I have no clue what I'm doing and I know I'm going to screw something up. All I have accomplished is the dress is bought, the veil and the tiara. Oh yeah, and the shoes. I still have to finalize the guest list, get the bridesmaids dresses ordered, pick out the flower girl dresses, talk to ( Read more... )

Eventually, I'll have time to write in this thing again...maybe after the wedding...and when I get a new job...and Nick goes to school...*sighs*

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh man, I wish you guys could see this baby!!!! It's gorgeous!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, don't get me wrong. I was all in the Christmas spirit until recently. Seriously, this was supposed to be the best Christmas ever. I put so much thought into everyone's gift, and I've been determined to get them. I couldn't wait to see the looks on their faces. Then all hell broke loose last week. My mother calls to tell me that no one ( Read more... )

This whole thing is just frustrating and upsetting. Usually I can credit Stephen with the ability to see things from different perspectives, but right now he's being so close-minded it just makes me want to fucking punch something. *breathes in and out slowly* Honestly, I can understand why he would be upset...because he's got this fucked-up ( Read more... )

I don't understand how I can spend the entire day with someone and it still not be enough. From the moment Stephen got home from work, it's been all about him. We ate together and even when we went to take Nick out for a walk it was about him. We kept playing around so much, I'm surprised Nick didn't feel left out. (Well, he might've. He did ( Read more... )