Its been getting harder to tell who my friends are. So many are quick to call you a friend but dont do anything to back it up. Theyre polite and sweet to your face then change their face when you turn your back. I know I havent been getting around and talking to my friends very much for the past couple of months. Ive been away. Ive been busy moving ( Read more... )

love is feeling a person without actually touching them ( Read more... )

Past loves, friends, and rivals have become just that. Memories imprinted on my mind, not to haunt me anymore. There are a few though that have effected me more and I cannot forget them. They are more than memories, but with faces fixed onto them. But I have finally separated those memories from my present day life. I can let them effect me no ( Read more... )

Yesterday morning Jon walked up with me around four in the morning to go get coffee before work. We were going to go to VI but forgot it was closed on Sunday night. So we walked down to Dennys and played chess and drank coffee. It was wonderful. This morning we visited Sparky at work then up to mine after he was off for my check. Now Im just ( Read more... )

I was taking the bus back from work yesterday when I saw this lady with two kids. Adorable kids, being just as any normal ones would, not too obnoxious or loud. I was sitting right next to her hearing her being so fucking mean to them. The whole ride to Jons I heard "Ill hit you! Stop that. Ill slap you! Be quiet! Stop sitting on my purse. Ill slap ( Read more... )

Work is leaving me so exhausted. Im either working or sleeping most of the time and forcing myself to be awake the rest. I miss being around Jon all the time. Its taking too much out of me. I need to find another job. I havent been sleeping well either like I usually do when I crash. I even drempt about washing dishes a few days ago. My god. I dont ( Read more... )

My job is leaving me so exhausted. Im sleeping all the time and feeling so tired when im not. My dreams have been really fucked up and im not sleeping good when Jons not there. I cant wait till I get my paycheck Im not getting my cigarette intake either ( Read more... )

I... have a job... at the chocolate shop... a job at the chocolate shop... much joy and sore limbs. I started today early in the day. I was working my ass off before even 8am!! Without sleep. I was so exausted by the end of the day, I only got one break the entire time. Well, I made it through and Im finally making money. I got the position I didnt ( Read more... )

Ill be a fucking bitch. To those who deserve it. I wont step around you quietly hoping not to disrupt your precious lives when you Ive me a reason to sream everything out. Fuck that. fuck it all. No Im not always the happy polite Jen when people pretty much call me a whore, bitch, and do shit they said theyd never do. And fuck double standards. You ( Read more... )

Im feeling much better, calmer again.. Jon and I walked in search of cigarettes. I still meant every word I wrote in my last post but Im just... calmer now. i am going to be honest, if people havent noticed by now, I have been more as of late. I dont want to be any other way. I wont say anything to intentionally start problems with anyone but I ( Read more... )