Colbie Caillet's Try. The opening verses speak so perfectly to my entire life I can barely breathe ( Read more... )

I got my performance review for this year from my boss - Superior :)! I think I deserve an Outstanding >:[ because I was AWESOME with my work product and I received TWO AWARDS for excellence - but at the same time I totally get where my boss is coming from, because I also have ebbs and flows where I'm like idgaf and I'm just generally ( Read more... )

I deserve to be happy. I am finding the things that feed my happiness. I am learning to like myself. I'm learning to let things go, acknowledge that change takes time, and not be negative or too serious about everything. I'm noting trigger points that get me down/cause the spirals, and talking myself through them (BREATHE ( Read more... )

All I want in life is to be happy, be social and go out and DO stuff and LIVE *WITH* people. I *need* people. I'm a total Extrovert ( Read more... )

Told my parents I have an eating disorder. Explained what that means, how I feel about weight and how much self-loathing I feel towards my body and my self and the unrealistic expectations/ways my mind correlates weight with happiness and how I "achieved" the "goal" (through starvation, binge-purging, laxatives, and OTC pharm/"diet" drugs galore) ( Read more... )

We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans ( Read more... )

i dont really care about my birthday (i pretty much hide the date on every social media application) but it does feel rather depressing to not do anything for it...

unfortunately pretending it is not happening doesn't make it not happen/me a year older. boo.

I think I'm over my eating disorder. Not because I'm actually over my eating disorder thoughts.... but now that it's been maybe a month since I officially went into "recovery" i.e. eating food? I exercise and I feel alive, I eat food and it gives me ENERGY and brain power and whaaat magical. I was still restricting for a while though...but still my ( Read more... )

I have been supersuper productive at work. enjoying exercise andrunning daily.
I've saved about $5000 this year so far.
I finally buckled down and focused on my fear of studying for exams and am prepping for the GRE.
And candidly - albeit peripherally - discussed the fact that I have an eating disorder with my mom.

Yay progress/being an adult!

hey rememmber when i was fun social lille and not weighted down with more eating disorders than calories to even count lille?? yeaaaah. i dont remember her either but i know i miss her...
...sorta.
...i