i feel like i should be making a wish. but no, it's too late, now it's 11:12:09. not that i have a lot to wish for. well, i guess this things i would want to wish for are impossible. but isn't that how life works anyway ( Read more... )

i made brownies today. this time WITHOUT rancid vegetable oil. i must say, these ones taste considerably better.

three more weeks and all my college apps are done. three more MONTHS and i might know where i'm accepted.

ARML power contest tomorrow - that should be exciting.

last night i had another routine freak-out about college stuff. every once in a while i'm suddenly overcome by this intense paranoia that, when i mail my college essays or letters of rec, i'll write the wrong address, or the post will mis-deliver, or something won't get to the right place and i won't get acceptedi also worry that i'm completely ( Read more... )

this morning i got up at 5:10 and went to vancouver for a math competition. i was scared because it was my first time competing as a mu(calculus student, basically) because i haven't learned much calculus yet, and also there are soo many 2nd and 3rd and maybe even 4th year mus out there... i was really intimidated. but i ended up doing decently ( Read more... )

( i guess this is me )

i underestimate myself because i'm afraid of disappointment.

i tend to judge people quickly because acknowledging the flaws of others helps me accept my own flaws.

i have this need to defend my actions and justify my mistakes. which is exactly what i'm doing right now.

i think it's because i'm insecure.

last night i browsed through all the old school assignments i have in my room... and goodness, i was friggin amazing when i was a little kid. seriously, i was really artistic, really good at poetry.... WHAT HAPPENED? i cant draw or write for crap anymore. ( check this out )

so yesterday or maybe thursday, something bit/stung my ankle. it was itchy yesterday, but i didnt think much of it - i figured (figgered) it'd be all better by today. but when i woke up, it hurt SO bad just to move my ankle. i went to xc practice just because i told mr J i'd be there, but i had to leave early because i could hardly walk, let alone ( Read more... )

today i opened an email from a MAO student delegate in my region, in regard to the information i had just given him. it said, "thank you very much!" then i opened an email from the president, who i had just sent a list of my delegates who were interested in committees. it said, "thank you very much!" deja vu ( Read more... )

but this picture really makes me laugh.


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