it amazes me how homophobic some people are. maybe i've just become unaccustomed to it, but this past summer has shed a lot of light on how gays are thought of outside the friendly community... I oddly miss c springs.

Pennsylvania's weather is phenomenal!! It has been raining all day long, and when I went for a run, I ended up going something like eight miles because the mist over the valley was so beautiful. And I didn't get hot. And everything is green ( Read more... )

Women drive me fucking crazy!!! What the hell.

Somedays I feel like i'm slipping. There's so many things that I should be doing, but I have either no desire or idea of how to do them. And then there's the future. Grad school? Internship? Study abroad? Life is too stressful. And its only been two weeks.

And the family drama continues. My brother’s ex-wife’s current husband left her this morning, which thrusts into action the events of the last year. Custody, breakdowns, drug withdrawals, medical coverage for the kids, and the emotional stability of my young nephew, an eleven year old father to his six year old sister. My heart breaks every time I ( Read more... )

Finally, in a day of chemistry glory, i not only got the lyophilizer up and running, but also finally achieved a decent recovery off of my column. Sweeettt!!!! Ugh I was beginning to think that I could never actually be a chemist. Week after week of failed experiments and no professor to bounce ideas off of. Of course, my professor has largely been ( Read more... )

can I just whine for a minute? When I thought I was straight, I got hit on by girls. Now that I am pseudo-out, I've been asked out three times in the last week...by men. What is this??? And random guy that I've talked to twice on the phone. Apparantly knows my high school prom date. What the hell!!! Damn I miss Amy

Two days ago I had one of those seemingly life-altering experiences, where suddenly everything just seems incredibly lucid. It was during my lunch hour, and with complete sunshine and a cloudless sky, I went for a walk in the garden and then by the duck pond. First of all, I saw a turtle, which I don't think I've ever seen before in colorado; more ( Read more... )

After a day of planting flowers and really doing nothing while not actually doing nothing, I can't actually imagine a better place than the moment. I'm on good if not great terms with all members of my family, have two or three jobs lined up, and there should be a few people in town this summer that I like to hang out with. Life is grand. And never ( Read more... )

I've spent the last day thinking back, back to the months of december and january. Probably February too. Those may have been some of the most difficult days of my life, though I'm still not sure why. The only answer I have for it is that it was something within me. I was out of control, content to blame my problems on whatever was available. From ( Read more... )