I'm still hurt by it. Especially after last night. That was just.. crap. I would say that people are just insensitive, but I never really let them know that it bugged me.

I got my nose pierced last night. Kristopher did an awesome job. I love it. I'm probably gonna get my belly button pierced next week.

[edit]So tomorrow and Monday were supposed ( Read more... )

I always think its fun to drink the night before... But when I get up for one of my jobs, I realize.. not so much.

I think I'm gonna get my belly button and nose pierced.

I don't know what happened. Half of the time, I'm not even sure what day it is anymore. I've been distant and completely lost. Not myself at all. And I hate that. I hate it for me, and I hate it for you. You don't know me like everyone else. You don't know that this isn't me. And I don't think you're willing to spend the time to find that out.

Oh my God.. You need to get a fucking phone. I know I've been bitchy to you lately.. And yes, most of it is undeserved. I'm not going to make excuses for it.. Its not right for me to do. I just want to talk to you right now.

Fuck. I'm supposed to be at work right now (at Jeff's Pub) and I can't get my car started. I pulled out of my driveway and forgot my debit card. So I came back, went to start my car again, and it won't start. I called Jeff's and was like "I can't get my car started." "Well, can't you get a ride?" Uh, no. Other people do have jobs, y'know. I told ( Read more... )

I went out with Lauren tonight. Just some girl time. No boys.. Which was fairly nice. I realized tonight how incredibly f'ing whooped I am, though. Sorry for talking about him so much, Lauren. :\ I've just never had a guy like this before. I'm gonna stop there about it.. 'Cause I think I've said enough about him for the night ( Read more... )

Things are better.. Not the greatest, but not as bad as the other night. I talked to Bryan today. Turns out he thought I was the one that was pissed off because I started yelling at him when I was really drunk. Poor guy. All because he told me he was going home and then in so many words said I probably shouldn't drive. Yeah, me and my stubborn ass ( Read more... )

I got frustrated tonight.. And reverted back to my old self. Went back to some old ways of attempting to relieve frustration. Not having enough will power to handle it just made me even more frustrated. Fuck.

The attempting not to care thing hasn't worked out too well so far. I left Pizza Hut early last night because I let shit get to me. Its not knowing what's going on that's getting to me. And not knowing what I said when I was drunk. I hate when days start off crappy. Now off to my second job I go. Ugh.

I definitely had too much to drink last night. And I'm gonna be paying for it when I head to work right now. I should have stopped drinking after the bowling alley. Damn those Tastes Like Pussy drinks ( Read more... )